Cocaine?!?
"Bert, it's my sugar."
"Gerard, that is definitely cocaine."
And he took the packet,
As I was full of disbelief.
He wiggled it around some,
Making sure every bit was at the bottom.
After he opened the top,
And poured it on the table.
He lined a bit up,
"See this?"
And pulled out a dollar.
Rolled it up,
And snorted up the sugar.
"I wanna try." I said
He laughed,
Gave me the dollar bill.
After I snorted it up,
Nothing happened.
"Bert, it doesn't work." I panicked.
And I tried again,
And again,
Until he pulled my arm away.
"Jesus Christ, relax, okay? It takes a little bit to kick in."
So I waited.
And waited.
And waited.
Nothing happened.
Bert slipped the drug back into the bag.
I knew it was cocaine this whole time.
But I thought that if I told myself it was sugar,
That wouldn't have made it so bad.
I can't even remember how I got involved in this.
I just wanted to be happy and
That happened.
And I took it so much that it doesn't seem to work anymore.
Why did I
Fucking destroy myself
Like this?
"It's still not working." I huff.
I want to stop
But I can't.
I'm so dependent on it to make me happy,
And it fucks me up when I don't get it.
It made me so sick
I wanted to kill myself.
Bert grew angry,
"Then I'll get you something that work faster so you can shut up, okay?"
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Sanity (Frerard)
Fanfic"And what I felt was more than thumping. I felt his love for me. and I think he loves me with his soul too." .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*. •Warning: Triggers • Drug Use • Soft Sexual Content • .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.
