"Gerard, are you okay?"
Sykes was absolutely baffled.
"What are you talking about?"
I inquired.
"Is it okay if I touch you?"
The question bewildered me,
But I nodded anyway.
He pressed against my tummy,
"...Have you been losing weight?"
What was he talking about?
"I'm eating normal!"
He gestured me to stand up.
There was a long, human-sized mirror in that room.
He guided me to it.
As he did,
I awaited my doom.
He said,
"look at how skinny you look...
Your clothes are so baggy."
I glanced at myself.
I looked normal!
I turned to him,
"Nothing looks different!"
"Gerard, I know you've lost weight."
"But I'm eating! I'm okay!"
I felt like slamming a fist
Onto a desk
Or something.
But instead,
The atmosphere grew quiet.
Sykes gave me this look,
Squinted his eyes.
"Gerard, you can tell me.
Are you lying?
Have you been skipping meals?
Are you not eating?"
"No," I yell, "I'm eating! I promise!"
He sat back.
"I believe you."
"Thank you."
There went that fucking smile.
The fucking smile that I wish I could take a picture of,
Every time he did it.
The fucking smile that I wish I could paste on a wall in my house,
Whenever I could grasp a photograph of it.
"Maybe this weight loss is just something random.
You don't look underweight.
But you just gave me a scare for a second."
I don't even know why he would think of it.
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Lmao BMTH reference
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