Sleepy Bois Inc. oneshots

"I am proud of you" (1)

⚠️Trigger Warnings⚠️

Swearing, mention of blood

Before you read, I have A random thing to say, this chapter and what goes on for its parts is a vent-ish thing and can relate to it a lot. Remember you are never alone, ever.

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Dream SMP set

(Most of these don't happen in the real Dream SMP!)

Wilburs POV (1st person)

The moment Phil had stabbed me was the beginning of my new chapter.

Freedom.

The sword that went through my chest, just like a knife trying to cut through a body of water.

To me, it's a beautiful, extravagant site.

However, his last words to me were always stuck in my mind.

"I am proud of you."

To be fair, I would've never expected him to say anything like that to me.
Especially after I blew up everything I had started from the very beginning.

And now, I'm in a void.

Alone.

Drifting away through my heart's content, to think, ponder and vent to only the darkness.

Vent to nothing, but for me only.

I wear what I wore before I died, the cloak and everything. But the bloodstain stayed, to remember what Phil had done to me.

For the better of course.

But sometimes, I get scenes.
I see things, things that are real.

I would've considered them memories, however, they are from what I remember.

My favourite one so far, was when I saw Technoblade working on his farm, probably giving up on the world.

I didn't want to approach him, he wouldn't forgive me.
Touching the snow was enough for me, feeling stuff.

I just watched him from a distance, he was so...peaceful.

But that only happened once.

I'll consider it the best time of my fucking lifeline.

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Today, I'm now thinking about why I'm in this void instead of where ever is left.

Why not heaven?

Why not hell?

I close my eyes, I could sleep now, but something had caught my eye.

A light.

A white light.

I need to get there. Now.

I ran, floated, flew, whatever I could do to get to that light.
This may be my escape, I could now be reborn, a new me.

I could be forgiven.

I jumped into it,
And an unfamiliar scene was shown.

A beautiful winter landscape, bare barren trees and snow.
Oddly satisfying.

I touched it, I had never been so cold in my life.
The same I felt when I saw Techno.

I felt myself smile, since..forever.

I walked around, appreciating the colours, Georgenotfound is luckier than me, and he's colourblind.

I saw the familiar area, where Technoblade farmed his crops.
I ran.

I ran so fast, and I saw paradise.

A wooden cabin, and just outside of it was him.

Philza fucking Minecraft.

I felt myself smile ever larger, I ran faster and opened my arms ready for a hug.
To show my love, to show I'm sorry, to show I have changed.

I was so close now, I can see him turning to where I am.

but I went through him.

I looked at my hands in disbelief.

"...b..but.."
I looked back at Phil who was observing his surroundings.
He wasn't looking at me, and I'm not even here.

"You alright Phil?"
I heard Technos voice ask, I watched them.

"..yeah. I just thought I felt something.."
Phil responded to Techno who gave back a wondering gaze.

I am here. But...

"Phil, I brought you out here because I wanted to ask you something."
Techno said, looking at Phil seriously.

I stood there, why bring me here world? Why this specific moment?

"Yeah?"

"Did you mean what you said to Wilbur before you.."
Techno didn't want to finish the last bit, I can sense that.

I glance at Phil who had a disappointing look.
"..I never did."

What.

I feel my knees drop to the snow, it wasn't as pleasant as before. It was cold. Cold.

Phil continued.
"I will never forgive him for what he has done. I said that to ease the pain but...now I regret saying it to him. Giving him false hope is what I regret."

Techno nodded, respecting his decision.

I was..perplexed.

I wanted to scream, shout at Phil.

I stood up, rage-filled me.

Betrayal.

And then it turned pitch black.

I was back in the void.

The fucking void.

The thing I thought was freedom, was a trap.

I have been lied to my whole life.

I felt hot tears fill my eyes.

I cried.

I sobbed.

I yelled at myself.

But who was it all to blame for?

Myself.