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⚠️talk of abortion⚠️

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Hoseok and Jania sit in his living room. Neither one of them has said anything since they got back from the doctor's office.

He finally convinced her to make an appointment to see if she was pregnant five days after their argument outside of Paris's party. She had an attitude the entire four days that he pleaded. She did not want to go.

But he had gotten tired of the ignoring and one sided conversation. He cornered her in her apartment and made her call the doctor. Now here they are.

Lost and confused.

Jania was sure that she wanted to get rid of it. Hoseok is teetering on the edge. They need to talk but they're too lost for words to speak. They use protection to prevent this exact scenario.

Now finding out that he slipped up one time.... The one time that he slips up, it's in the worst way possible. Neither of them know what to do. They don't want to choose wrong and regret it. They only have a week left to decide. Once she hits six weeks, her only option is to keep it.

Jania swallows thickly before turning her head to Hoseok. His eyes are already on her.

"Why do you want to keep it?" She asks quietly. Everything feels fragile right now. She feels that even speaking too loud will break something.

"I don't know. I'm really not sure if I want to." Hoseok voices his own concerns. "But I just keep thinking what if we don't... and we regret it? Then what? We can't reverse it."

"But if we do keep it and we're not ready, what happens then?" Jania's eyes water.

"In terms of money and housing, we're stable. Emotionally? Mentally?" He shakes his head. "I don't know."

They're quiet for a few minutes more.

Hoseok gulps and takes a deep breath before exhaling. "I'll go with you if that's your final decision."

The guilt and feeling of loss is eating him alive already but he doesn't want to push Jania to do anything that she doesn't want to.. carrying a baby, especially.

Jania looks at him and seems the confusion in his eyes. "Things feel too complicated for the both of us right now, Hobi. I'm sorry."

He shakes his head and grabs her hand. He leads her onto his lap. "It's not your fault. I should've been more careful. Now just isn't the time. You'll be the best mommy in the world when it is. I know you will."

Hoseok kisses the corner of her mouth and then her lips. Jania kisses him back and he grabs at her waist. He maneuvers to put her back against the couch as his kisses move to her neck. He takes his shirt off and then hers.

The fabric snags her left nipple ring and she hisses. "I'm sorry." He puts the warmth of his mouth on her breasts and she moans as the pain is soothed. He pulls her jeans from her legs and gets in between them. Taking his pants off, he thinks about whether or not he should go get a condom. It seems pointless given the circumstances.

"You already put a baby in me, Hoseok."

He pushes his way into her with shallow thrusts. When he bottoms out, he looks down at her. Her hand is wrapped around his forearm. He backs out and re-enters, sending pleasure through both of them.

When he picks up a steady pace, he leans down so that they're chest to chest. They hold onto each other as their foreheads touch.

"I'm sorry, Jania."

"Me too." She says as Hoseok's eyes water.

He doesn't want her to do the procedure. But he feels so conflicted. Mind and heart, he doesn't know what to choose.