[▶] for safekeeping.

rhapsody

you run in the back of my mind
like a radio that's never been shut off
always there in the background, music playing
I miss hearing the sound of your voice.

I get butterflies everytime I imagine
you holding me close
or getting to squeeze the life out of you
as I tackle you and hold you tight in my arms

I've never wanted somebody so much
yet been so okay with the non-happenings somehow
maybe it's me accepting part of growing up means
you don't always get to see each other.

I know. it's always harder to build a relationship
when you're not at school
or at work with one another.
we've walked different paths, you a wilder one than I have
simply because you've had more years on me
but I adore your boyishness that continues to peek through
that veiled maturity you've come to inhabit so well.

so here I am
curled up in my blanket as the rain pours outside
listening to love songs on my laptop that sound like they're
bursting and popping with sunshine bubbles of colour
and like a rock skipping lightly across a dancing lake leaving sparks of light behind it
or rose petals blooming, enveloping that beautiful woven center
vines growing, twirling round the barks of trees moving forth to reach the sunlight
just as I reach forward, trying to see you again one more time -
actually. I think you drive me insane
in the best, most peaceful way.
isn't that wild?
somehow having a crush has never felt this lovely and peaceful all at the same time.
I feel...content.
I think I'm glad for that.

yeah.
I'm glad I met you.