companion song: illicit affairs - taylor swift
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and I want to say I miss you
but honest to god, I -
I can't bring myself
no, I can't make - let myself
say anything else
because I'm scared to push you away and I'm scared that this is all in my head and I know I think way too much for any of it to be good for me, for us
but I could really -
I could really use someone right now.
and I don't know if that's right for me to ask.
I don't want to say anything else because I feel like that isn't right.
and I just feel when you're there, everyday
when you're just somewhere across the street from me yet I can't get to you it just feels so -
I don't know
how I'm supposed to survive holding on without a choice, because
it's not like I chose to fall for you
it's not like I chose to hang on to you
it's not like I wanted to
and I find it so funny
that I told - that I thought
I would never fall for you because
you know -?
but after a single day,
you changed my life forever and I don't know what else to do anymore.
you changed the whole course of my life - you changed everything I would do
you changed everything I said and how I looked at people and how I consider things and how I tried
you gave me the strength
but now I don't know what to do because,
I feel like I'm losing.
I'm fighting a losing battle -
because I don't have you
and I know it's stupid
and I shouldn't have to ask, I
shouldn't have to want you like this
it's not your responsibility to take care of me -
or to be with me.
and I'm sorry.
I miss you so much.
YOU ARE READING
[▶] for safekeeping.
Randoma collection of thoughts, musings, all the words I can never really say. placed here, in the palms of my youth. for safekeeping.