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for you pt. 4

Inspiration:

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• poem ○

I never really understood many things

until I met you.

I never understood why the lovers said

the roses bloomed brighter

the birds sang higher

and the spring seemed sweeter

whenever they were around one another

till I met you.

What did it mean to do something

for another person that was not you

and be entirely willing to give up everything

for them?

Why would you ever be so

devoted

and hung up

over one person?

Why would your days and nights

and your every thought

be occupied

by one soul and one only?

Why would you feel so much

that you would sacrifice everything

and do absolutely anything

for someone?

But then I saw your eyes

I heard your laughter, and I became aware

of you,

and I understood.

I talked to you

listened to the many stories you had to tell

watched the many little tricks you had to play

and I loved you.

I loved the way you walked

the way you smiled

the way you would look up at people while your head was down

your lashes creating a dark curtain above your eyes.

I loved the way you liked to clap at everything

the way you liked to draw

how you liked to sing

your dedication and your passion - your heart.

I loved how you could be so innocent

so naive, so pure of

chaotic thoughts,

heartache.

I asked myself how one

could always look prettier than a rose

and shine brighter than the hottest sun

every single day without fail.

I started to play more music

and every time I did

I wondered if you would like it

and I kept trying harder.

I wrote every word

tried to convey the unspeakable things I felt

for you

in a little black notebook.

I lied to everyone

put on a smile

said it was simply my daily 'overly-emotional' thoughts

but it wasn't true.

I longed for your smile

the look in your eyes everyday

when you were joyful,

and it made me happy that you were so.

I realised I would give you

all my time

all my heart

even if it meant you crushed my efforts without a second glance.

I never realised

how capable of passion

and tension

I was before you.

I never realised

how much my thoughts

could keep me awake or

troubled.

But it's okay

I don't mind this

because for you, dear,

I'd do anything.

I'd reach out to the galaxies

to get you the stars and the moon

and if I failed to do so

I would bring you to them.

I would write a million words

a thousand sonnets

and a billion songs

for you.

Even if you never reciprocate

even if you never notice my glances from afar

it's okay.

Because I will still love you

no matter what.

I love you

and please

don't ever forget that.

- fin -

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A/N: this is the fourth part of 'for you'. Oh dear me.
So our choir concert, 'Lights, Camera, Smile!' was last Saturday (7th May) and I think both shows went pretty well :D We were running high on adrenaline and I didn't mind it and so many beautiful memories were made.
However, I'm currently suffering from what is famously known as pcd - post concert depression - so I shall have to find a way to get through this since there is also no choir for the rest of this week. Sigh.
Plus the tests and projects these two weeks are going to murder me :')

Anyway, hope you liked this and thank you so much for reading!

♡, Bella