But I'm a Villain

Did You Really Just do That?

The next day was complete chaos. Everybody was still going on about my murders from yesterday, I don't understand why people are still talking about it. Eraserhead wasn't here today, neither was Present Mic. They were both out on the hunt for Mind Freak. I found this hilarious, of course. The villain they've been hunting for is sitting right in front of them, how convenient. It's a shame they don't know, really.
After school I agreed to hang out with Denki. Though I won't admit it to anybody out loud, I've actually become fairly fond of him. It's a real shame I'm going to have to betray him one day, it truly makes me sad. I know that's how it has to be, though. Denki and I live in 2 completely different worlds, those worlds will never mix positively.
Once school finished I went up to my dorm room to change out of my uniform. I hated that thing, it didn't feel right. After I was in a hoodie and sweatpants I went over to Denki's room. He answered the door the second I knocked, it was kind of creepy. I walked inside and instantly started looking around the room. I've never actually been inside of Denki's room, we've always hung out in Mina's. I have to admit that his room was a lot neater than I expected it to be.
Denki and I had decided on playing video games for a little while. Because of Tomura's gaming addiction, I've grown to be fairly good at almost any kind of video game. It was a constant thing. Ever since I was 12 he always came to me whenever he wanted to play video games. I almost always agreed. Denki had popped Mario Kart into the gaming console and walked over to the bed, handing me a controller in the process.
Needless to say, I kicked his ass. Mario Kart was one of Tomura's favorites, I play this game on a weekly basis for hours on end. I tend to be better than the average person. "How the hell are you so good at this, Toshi? It's not fair." Denki pouted.
My eyes widened a little when he called me Toshi, nobody but the league had ever done that before. It caught me off guard. Before he noticed I composed myself, "A lot of practice, my one friend's obsessed with video games. I play with him all the time." I respond, shooting him a sly smile. Denki's face turned red and he darted his eyes towards the ground, suddenly turning shy. I shrugged this off and selected the next course.
After a couple hours of doing nothing but losing, Denki got fed up with Mario Kart so we changed games. He yet again chose one of Tomura's favorite games, Street Fighter. Once again, I kicked Denki's ass, causing him to get frustrated. We bailed on video games not long after that, deciding to watch a movie instead. Denki put on what he called one of the best movies in the world, which turned out to be some random comedy he had lying on the floor.
   "Hey, Hitoshi?" Denki had asked randomly half way through the movie.
   "Yeah?" I asked, turning my head to look at him. That's when Denki leaned in close to me and pressed his lips onto mine. I sat there, frozen. Was he kissing me? Is that what's happening right now? Is Denki in love with me or something? Questions kept filling my head as Denki pulled away, a look on disappointment on his face.
   "S-Sorry, I shouldn't have done that." Denki said, quickly looking off to the side. I hated that look. I hated seeing him sad. I wanted to leave, but instead I ended up placing my hands on the sides of Denki's face and reconnected our lips. What the hell was I doing?
   Our lips started moving in synch and Denki wrapped his arms around me neck while pulling me down on top of him. My hands slowly wondered down his body and softly gripped onto his waist. My brain was screaming. "You shouldn't be doing this, he's a hero!" "In due time he's going to find out who you are and what you've done, he'll hate you." But right now, I really didn't care. The only think I cared about was Denki and how I can keep him this close to me forever.
Denki pulled away after a while and started gasping for air. I sat up on my knees, I was a lot less out of breath than Denki was. "Hitoshi, I-I really like you." Denki said in between breaths.
I looked into his eyes, "I think I might like you too." I replied. I didn't actually know how I felt, my mind was constantly contradicting itself. I enjoyed being alongside Denki, but I could never stop being a villain, that's my whole life. I need to do that shit to live. I really can't live without being a villain, there's no way I'd survive. I knew I couldn't be with Denki for long, but for this small amount of time I've convinced myself that it was ok to enjoy this.
A wide smile appeared on Denki's face. He sat up and placed a hand on my cheek. He then leaned in and planted a kiss on the opposite cheek. "Go out with me sometime?" Denki asked.
I nodded as I felt a small smile creep onto my face, "Yeah, definetly." I replied as I wrapped my arms around Denki. It's so hard to explain my emotions right now. I was so happy, but at the same time scared and empty. I didn't realize how happy liking somebody would make me, but I also realized how hollow you feel when you realize it won't last.
Denki and I had lied there for quite a while, just wrapped in eachothers' embrace. That was, until sombody knocked on the door. It was Midoriya, calling Denki and I down for dinner. Denki slowly got up and I followed suite. We went downstairs and took our places at the dinner table. I looked around the table, taking in everybody's face and their expressions.
I've been thinking about it, and I'm actually going to miss this when everything comes to an end. It's only a matter of time until my identity's exposed. I can't hide forever, no matter how hard I try. I'm slowly realizing just how much fun I actually have hanging around 1A. It genuinely sucks that one day I'll betray them. It sucks even more that they won't see it coming. It's a shame this is all bound to go down in flames.