ᴛᴇᴀʀ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ

finally our chance?

december 1, 2019

i shiver as i quickly ring billies doorbell, followed by her opening it a few moments later. "you cold" she asks, i nod as i close the door and follow her down the hall. as we enter her room, pepper follows as she shuts the door.

billie sits down as i take my shoes off. she looks pretty today, her black hair in two buns as her skin glows perfectly.

i slump into billies arms on her bed and she doesn't hesitate to wrap them around me.

"how are you, love?"

i smile, "i'm okay," i look up to her "you?"

"i'm good," she says with a smile. i raise my brows and fix my gaze on the ground. i open my mouth to speak but shut it immediately, for the sake of avoiding causing further damage, im going to refrain from asking my question.

however, i can't help but wonder if she and heather are done.

billie interrupts my thoughts looking down into my eyes before saying "pretty girl" and kissing my lips.

i return the kiss, unable to contain my need for the sensation. for the first time in a long time, i can feel her lips on mine. i try to pull away, but my lips won't let me. i want to scream at how well she fits into them, and how the cadence of her lips matching the beat of her hands clutching at me is making me tingle.

as i sit up on her lap, she moves away with a quiet smack.

billie hums when i say "you and heather," but i don't complete my sentence as i trail off.

her question was phrased as if she had no idea what i was talking about, "what about her" i sigh "it would be wrong for us to do this while you and her are still dating, right?"

billie closes her eyes and smacks her lips as she gazes off to the side, her face expressionless.
when she asks, "do what" i respond, "do this," gesturing to myself sitting on her lap, "us."

"there technically is no us," she says. i roll my eyes, getting off her lap as i did "whatever billie, you just fucking said that there was, and now there isn't? make up your mind."

"woah," she says grabbing my waist "calm down, angel. there isn't an us yet, i gotta figure this shit out with heather" billie returns me to her lap "i just need time."

i sigh "i've been waiting for so long billie, when will there be an us?"

she smiles slightly "soon" billie grabs my cheek, making me look at her "but you'll wait for me, right? like you said."

i sigh yet again but force a smile "of course." i do not want to wait, i do not want to put myself through that. i want to say no and just give up on billie but what if she finally means it this time?

what if this is finally our chance?

i don't want to give that up.

513 words (filler chapter.)