ᴛᴇᴀʀ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ

the stars have aligned

some of y'all about to be real mad at me..

may 9, 2020

the past few months have been nothing but love and real happiness for me. i've never felt more alive in my entire life.

maybe i'm being a little theatrical, but the quantity of love being poured into me seems to make my heart expand more and bigger every day.

billie and i— were practically perfect? we still have a lot of things to work out in whatever we call this but she's matured.

we talk, and we hardly ever argue.

which is good i think? i like this, i like love, and maybe i even like life.

my phone vibrates against my bathroom sink and i answer it, smiling at the contact.

"hi baby" billies voice echos throughout the room, "hi" i reply with a laugh as i put on my earrings.

"let me see your face," billie says, causing me to set my phone up on the counter. she 'ooo's' making me blush, "shut up."

billie smiles, shaking her head "im almost there okay? i had to pick something up."

i smile as i nod my head, anticipating seeing billie. i flutter when i see billie; being around her makes me float.
i can't describe how she makes me feel; it's as if i'm younger again, falling in love with her for the first time.

"hair up or down" i question, flipping my braids in the mirror. she looks down at the screen for only a split second, due to the fact that she was driving.

"however you want mama" she answered. i nod, putting my hair up into a bun. hearing billie say things like that make me feel pretty and i know she's only answering a question but— i don't know.

"okay love, i'm outside your house, come down when you're ready," billie says "bye."

and with that, she had hung up the phone.

i hurriedly exited my bathroom, gathering my belongings. as i did, my gaze was drawn toward something, so i picked up the velvety box, opened it, and removed the ring.

i examined the promise ring by placing it on my finger. considering the fact that it is extremely gorgeous, i never sat to admire it.

perhaps then, i was giving billie too much of a hard time— i think she genuinely loved me?

i don't know.

i made my way down my steps, pushing my dog away from jumping on my dress. my mom hums, "be back by 11" she says and i roll my eyes playfully.

"yeah yeah," i say as i walk out the front door.

i notice billie resting against her car, a tiny grin on her face. without saying anything, she opens the car door for me.

shortly after, billie was joining me in the car. she reaches into her backseat, pulling out beautiful pink roses; my favorite.

"for you," she says, handing them to me."thank you," i say with a smile. billie places her hand on my thigh, as she begins to drive.