ᴛᴇᴀʀ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ

addicted to her

february 14, 2020

billie seems to always find her way to my front porch; either crying or with something to say.

this time she looks as if she's going somewhere important. she waved at me through the window, motioning for me to come out.

i'm skeptical, but i open my door anyway; stepping outside.

"hey," she says, i rock on the heels of my feet unsure of what to say. i don't think i've heard her speak in about a month or more.
she looks pretty though as if she's purposely looking good today.

"what's behind your back," i ask, ignoring her greeting. "oh," she says, revealing the pink roses and teddy bear.

that's right, today's valentine's day; i had totally forgotten all about that. not much of a surprise that billie is here, though i wasn't expecting a gift, more so tears, and some sorry ass excuse.

i hum and reply, "no thanks" to which she sighs "please?"

rolling my eyes i take the gifts and put them inside my house; quickly returning to my porch.

billie opens her mouth but i shake my head causing her to close it. she plays with her rings, and i notice she is wearing my favorite one.

she's wearing all black, and her hair is pulled back. her ears hold silver earrings to match her rings, and her face looks extra pretty today.

"are you wearing makeup," i ask, to which she looks up "huh?"

i chuckle "are you wearing make-up?"

she nods slowly "why? you don't like it? i was trying to try something but if you don't like it then—"
i cut off billies rambling, laughing at her flushed face "no it's fine, i was just asking."

she nods, and silence fills the air once more until she finally speaks up "i— well i came here to ask you if you wanted to go out" billie says "for valentine's day."

"go out" i question, crossing my arms.

"yeah— on a date" billie responds, i don't think billie and i have been on a date.
i mean for my birthday it was going to be but then that whole thing happened.

plus, billies has never really been the type for dates. she's always been a casual kinda person, so this is new.

"mmmm where," i ask.

she smiles softly at my consideration, "dinner, and then somewhere else but it was going to be a surprise."

i chuckle "oh so you planned this out?"
she shrugs "maybe."
i shake my head "and what if i say no?"

billie laughs "then you say no."

it's silent for a moment as i think about it, "fine," i say "come in."
and with that, she was walking upstairs behind me, and into my room.

"this is gonna backfire" is all i can think about, and if i was being honest i don't think i will be considering this a date; for my own sake.

she sits on my bed after putting the flowers she gave me in the vase on my dresser. i hadn't noticed she grabbed them on the way up.