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Taylor's pov

I left the house and I drove as far as possible. I didn't keep track of where I was going, but before I knew it I could see the sunset as I drove alongside a mountain or hill of some sort. I was of higher elevation, I knew that.

I slowed down, wanting to look at it. Something so peaceful, so angelic and beautiful. Yet if a human were to get to close or look too long they could be seriously injured.

I pulled the car off into a small gravel lot, shutting it off and climbing out. There was nothing after the gravel, not a railing and not any land. Just a straight drop to the ground hundreds of feet below me. A drop that could lead me to my death, if I wasn't careful. But I knew I would be careful.

The breeze was gently blowing my dress around, exposing my slitted thigh more than it was already. I stopped at the edge of the gravel, kicking a couple of the rocks down the edge, ultimately a cliff.

I crossed my arms, watching the sun as it sunk below the rest of the mountains and hills, admiring the sky as was stained a mixture of oranges and pinks

I knew that Colby was cheating on me. I knew it, I had for weeks. So why was I feeling so hurt now that I confronted him?

Was it the fact I was now facing reality, or was it the guilt I had towards Angelina for not listening to her and leaving him as soon as I found out?

I needed to apologize to her, that's for sure. I didn't know what I would do about Alex and the hatred that has grown towards her over the course of this past month.

I couldn't stay at the apartment, maybe Angelina will let me stay with her and Aryia until I can find somewhere else to live.

Or maybe I could go back and find her and all her stuff gone, just like that. But I don't have that kind of luck.

I needed somewhere I could raise my baby. My baby. California wasn't the place for that.

I could be in denial for as long as possible but I knew I would need to go back home to Texas, I had no other choice.

Also to my disappointment, I heard the gravel behind me pop as tires ran across it. I could recognize that Toyota Corolla from anywhere.

Colby wasted no time in his car, getting out and walking slowly over to me, seeming to judge how I looked to see how I'd react to whatever he had to say.

I kept my arms folded over my chest, resting most of my weight on one hip. I didn't have the time to put shoes on before I left, so the rocks were gently poking into my feet and beginning to chip away at my nail polish.

He stared at me for a long, long time before speaking, "I remember the first time we kissed," He began out of nowhere. I did my best not to picture what he was talking about, to block it out along with his voice, "I remember thinking that I wanted, no needed, to have so much more of you or I'd die. But at that moment I was okay, things between us were peaceful,"

I felt the moisture begin to balance on my eyelashes, and I did what I could to blink them away, "I hate you," I whispered with a shake of my head, "I hate you so much,"

"No," He cracked a smile, "No you don't,"

"I should," i nodded, biting my lipstick-smeared lip, "I should hate you,"

His smile faded once he realized I was serious, and his soft tone turned to something more harsh, "I did everything to make you happy! Do you remember the night when you asked me what I'm scared of? And I didn't respond but I pretended to be asleep instead?'

I stayed silent, we both know I clearly remembered that night, but I waited to see what point he was trying to make, "I'm scared of everything, Taylor. I'm scared, okay? I'm scared to breathe. I'm scared to touch you! You made me love you, you made me let you in!"

"I didn't do that, that was all your fault," I pointed into his chest, "You were the one that started this all by taking me home at Jake's birthday party. Why do you have to be so selfish, huh?"

He shook his head, glaring down at me, "I can't lose you, I wouldn't be able to live. And that's your fault,"

"No," I stopped him, "I won't listen. You wonder why?" The words surprised us both as I said them, "I don't love you anymore,"

Colby stared down at his hands, taking in those five words that I could never possibly take back. "Since when?"

"Now," I stuttered, "Just now. Now, please go,"

"Don't do this to me, Taylor. Don't push me away, talk to me. I love you!" His hands folded in front of his body like he was begging, which he was.

"STOP!" I silenced his blabbering with my outburst. He stared at me with sad, yet piercing eyes as I talked, "It's about you and how you make me feel wehn I'm with you, alright? I feel stupid and worthless cause you go do all that stuff with Alex but at the same time I feel like none of my thoughts are right. And you know what I've come to realize? That's not my fault! I want. you. to. care!"

"I don't want you to just accept cheating like it's normal in a relationship and that's how it's supposed to be!" He shouted back, "When I'm around you or even when I'm not I feel like I'm nothing! I am nothing! That's how being with you makes me feel! Like I'm NOTHING," He spat out the last of his words, causing me to flinch away..

I turned away, walking back over to where I was before Colby got here, and left him where he was, "I can't be with you." I decided, "I won't be with you,"

"Wait, wait," He backtracked, his voice rising in pitch as he began to process the entire situation, "What are you saying?"

"I'm saying go away!" I whipped around to see him closer to me than before.

"What? No, don't do this to me, please, Taylor," He pleaded, grabbing my arm to try and calm me down, something that used to work. Used to. His touch used to calm me down.

"Go away, Colby!" I shouted in his face, sniffling to try and stop my crying from continuing.  

"You're all I want!" He promised, "You're all I have-"

No I scolded myself I would not fall for his lies again.

"Yeah, that explains why you were cheating on me! Cause that makes a lot of sense! Go away!" I took another step backwards.  This caused my feet to catch on my dress, and I grabbed onto Colby to balance myself, but immediately pushed myself away from him, one of my feet now slipping on the gravel below me.

I watched as Colby fell to the ground, I shoved him a little harder than I meant to.

His face changed from one of anger to one of pure panic as the sky became the only thing I could see.

It was too late for me to realize I was falling, and either way there was no way I could save myself.

The last thing I heard before everything went dark was Colby's screams and cries for my name.

I heard a snap and everything was peaceful. It was like I was dead.

~THE END~