Max/Sadie imagines

Struggling

TW: mentions of depression and anxiety.

You're layed on your bed in your trailer cuddling a pillow. Your mental health has really taken a serious decline lately. You're really really struggling. Nobody has noticed because you're putting on a mask. But that mask slips the minute you get under the covers in your trailer. Not even your girlfriend has noticed.

There's a knock on your door. It's Sadie, Noah and Millie. You three are supposed to go hang out today. You dont have the energy, physically and emotionally, to do it today. 10 minutes they spend knocking. Sadie goes to your bedroom window. The curtain is open. You're layed there. Facing the window. Your eyes are open but you're not looking at the window.

Sadie taps on the window. You look up. She smiles. You roll over and her smile falters. She goes to the door.

"What's goin on?" Millie asks.

"I dunno.... i think we should leave her and let her be. I think she's just tired." Sadie says.

A few hours pass and you're layed on the sofa in your trailer. Sadie goes to your trailer and knocks on the door. You go open it. She smiles.

"Hey." She says.

You force a smile.

"Hello." You say, stepping aside to let her in.

She walks in and you shut the door. You then lock it and sit on the sofa.

"What was wrong earlier?" Sadie asks.

You look at her with a frown.

"Nothing baby. Why?" You say.

"Cos you were supposed to come out with me Millie and Noah. When we came to get you, you didn't come with. I came to your window and you looked at me but rolled over as if you didn't want to exist today." Sadie says.

You bite your lip a little. She notices your eyes tear up and sits next to you on the sofa. She takes your hands into hers.

"Hey it's okay. Dont worry. I'm not gunna judge you for whatever you tell me." She says.

She wipes the few stray tears that have slipped down your face. You look at her.

"Talk to me." She says.

"I'm really struggling. Like... my mental health took a serious spiral last night and it just hit so hard and I'm really really struggling because i dont have any effective coping mechanisms to help me get through these things and its just getting so much worse." You say, tears now streaming down your face.

She pulls you into a hug and you just cry.

"My depression got so so much worse in the space of half an hour and my anxiety flew through the roof for absolutely no reason so i tried to sleep if off and i just couldn't. It was all there screaming at me and it felt like i couldn't breathe. It was unbearable. But i calmed down after a while and that's why i looked like i didn't wanna exist this morning because i was so so tired. It all stopped at like 7am. The sun was up and people were walking around all while i was layed there trying to get things to be quiet." You say.

"Why didn't you call me? I'd have been here for you." Sadie says.

"Because you needed your sleep. You've been filming more exhausting scenes than me and you needed to sleep." You say.

"It doesn't matter. Baby you have to call me or just text me if this happens again. I'll always be here for you." She says.

"You promise?"

"I pinkie promise." She says, holding out a finger.

You wrap your finger around hers and she padlocks it to add to the promise. She then places a kiss on your lips and you both go cuddle in your bed to take your mind off of everything. You'll be okay eventually.

I just wanna say that it's perfectly fine to not be okay. Life throws some shitty curveballs at you and if you ever need anybody to talk to, I'm always here for you guys. Without you guys, i wouldn't be in the position i am right now with my books and near enough 800 followers so thank you very much.

I hope you enjoyed this one. Byeeeeeee :)