"Joon's Dia"

(Chapter 77: Food, Facts and Forever)

It felt like magic when I was able to touch her and hold her in my arms. After the initial shock of me being a father, I realised that I needed to make serious amendments with my baby's mama... LOL I love that I could say that. I love her and there's nothing I wanted more than to make her mine and we could live happily ever after.

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My tour of service was over. I did my time and now it was time for me to do her. I was so fucking serious when I told her that I would've taken her into the back and fuck her senselessly. I needed her. I needed to feel myself inside of her and I wanted to make lots of more babies with her. CJ was adorable, sensible, smart and such a great little boy. Ken did a good job but now CJ needed his father. His biological father. Ken had him for, I think Blue said they met when CJ was about a year old. Ken had his time with him, now it was time for me to step in and take over. Well take over the role and responsibilities of being a father and hopefully a husband. I was totally fucking serious about our 'happily ever after'. I was going to make her mine no matter what. Only Blue herself would be the one to thwart my plan.

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My plan: Find Blue, make her mine again, marry her, adopt Anni and bring them to South Korea to live a least two years so they could become official citizens. CJ was unexpected. TOTALLY UNEXPECTED! But totally wonderful. He was mine but I didn't want that claim to be the reason why I wanted Blue to be my wife. I was still madly and crazily in love with her and spending the rest of my life with her was all I wanted, whether we had children or not. CJ was just something to sweeten the pot and up the ante.

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From the moment I left her arms to enter Brad's taxi, I felt empty. I looked back at her and I saw her wiping her tears as I drove off. I was quiet during the ride just answering Brad's questions with one or two words. I was excited but totally nervous just thinking about what happened earlier and what would happen tomorrow. I thanked Brad and Suzy when we arrived at my hotel and I went straight into my room. I wasn't sad but I felt numb. I had her in my arms, we shared a deep passionate kiss, we felt the hunger in each other's bodies but yet here I was all alone. 'But not for long...' I couldn't wait for tomorrow.

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It wasn't soon enough but I thanked God when it was finally tomorrow. I packed up my bag and checked out of the hotel. I found myself floating towards the festival which was already in full swing. It was the lunch hour and I stood in the same 'hiding spot' from yesterday. I was standing across the road from her booth watching from afar. Blue was already there giving instructions and making sure everything was going well. There was an extremely long line in front of her stall but no one was complaining. They were smiling and talking with each other. This just showed how good her food was. I knew this from first hand. My belly grumbled. Hmm... I was hungry but then I felt my other hunger emerging.

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I saw where Blue stopped and looked around. Yesterday when she did that, I hid but not today. This time, I was out in the open so I stood my ground and looked straight at her and just like yesterday when I had entered her restaurant, our eyes locked into each other. I immediately saw a glow around her. Her entire body seemed as though there was a light illuminating from her. I wondered if it was her Chi. When she smiled and blushed, I felt her warmth and immediately my dick rose. FUCK! Thank God I had on my long jacket. I swallowed my saliva and I winked at her. Her face was as red as the strawberries she had in a bowl in front of her.

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Then she got back to her tasks, as a customer caught her attention. It was the same couple with the little child I saw at her restaurant yesterday. I saw as she held the child again and they embraced. I grunted. FUCK! 'Stop being jealous of a child, Namjoon' Then I thought of CJ. She had three years to love and nurture him. A little part of me felt cheated of those years but technically I was in camp during that time. So even if I knew about her pregnancy, there was nothing I could've done about it. However, if the military personnel knew she was expecting, they would've given us time to be together and they would've let me be there with her during her delivery.