Tangled ✓

He knows now

~~Advika~~

After a heart felt dinner, all of us gathered on the lawn. Papa and Deepak papa, seated in one couch, were discussing their retirement. Though Deepak papa made an announcement about his retirement, I very well know that my Papa doesn't have any intentions to retire at any time soon. 

And here, Maa and Chandini Maa are discussing the country's politics. I never knew that they were interested in those. 

And coming to Adiraj, Harsh and I, we got settled on the grass and were playing with Adiraj. This is my family. My little family who has been with me through thick and thin. And the only person that was missing is Viraj. 

There isn't a day that I don't miss him. There isn't a moment that I don't miss him. With each passing day the pain of losing him might go numb. But his memories can't fade away. They won't. 

Viraj, I love you and I miss you so much.

My thoughts broke when a soft hand landed on me. I looked down at Adiraj who was happily showing me his puzzle game which he actually did wrong. Entirely. So for the next half hour, Harsh and I tried our level best to teach Adiraj correctly.

Soon the night has fallen completely and everyone retired into the house leaving me and Harsh. Once we were left alone, Harsh turned his complete attention towards me.

"I want to know. Everything. Everything that I missed." His voice resembles like he is actually making some kind of business deal. Though I hate his tone, I decided to spill everything to him.

For one, I just can't hide anything from him.

For two, I really need someone on my side who knows exactly what is happening. I can't go alone in this. I know for sure that there are many people on Jaiveer's side who know whatever the hell is happening. So, I too need someone on my side to lean on.

So, that's it. I spilled everything.

How my father brought this alliance.

How he assured me that Jaiveer is going to be a good father for Adiraj.

How I noticed the rigidness in Jaiveer's behaviour on engagement day.

How I tried to contact him before marriage.

How this so-called marriage was performed.

How Jaiveer revealed everything on the wedding night.

How I gave my word to Jaiveer regarding divorce.

It took me hours to recall everything and narrate everything to Harsh. All the energy that I pooled up from morning was utilised. With each moment that I recollected that happened in the past few months, it weighed me more. It doesn't feel like my life at all. From the past 30 years, my life ship has sailed so smoothly. But the moment Viraj left me, it sank down. And I have a feeling that along with mine, I'm taking Adiraj's down too. 

But I shouldn't let that happen. Adiraj hasn't started his life yet. I don't want his life to become a game piece in this drama. And mostly the thing that's making me worried is, I'm alone in this. Even though I had a lovely, strong family behind me, I was alone in this. I can't even understand whether I'm making the right decisions or not. So at least for that, I had to have someone to back me up. And that's how I recollected everything and opened up then to Harsh, though ignoring the fact that I am actually sleeping on a couch. That's the secret reserved for Jaiveer and me. 

Once I finished narrating, l looked at Harsh. He is staring intently at me with a poker face. Silence engulfed us. No one or nothing disturbed us. Not even the cool breeze. Not even the sound of crickets. It felt like everything around the world was still. And I have no doubt that it's just silence before the storm. And just like I have expected, here comes the storm.