Messed up! The Great Beginning

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I was stunned, my eyes wide open. My mouth dropped. Sasha continued to sob.

"What.. the fuck do you mean 'helped them'?" I questioned not believing what I was hearing.

"The Lightners... They took your mom... I'm one of them!" He shuddered looking me dead in the eye.

"I'M SO SORRY PATRICIA!" He clings to my sweater on his knees sobbing uncontrollably into it.

I'm at a loss for words. I started beathing heavily. My chest started to feel so tight. I grabbed him by his shoulder and forcefully shoved him off of me. He hit the ground hard and his head on a dumpster. He yelped and put his hands on the back of his head. I didn't feel bad for him.

"You HELPED... to kidnap..."

"MY MOTHER?!" I yelled, my shock finally turning into furiousity.

"Tricia I-!" He tried to speak.

"YOU TRAITOR! YOU BETRAYED OUR ENTIRE EMPIRE!" I raged and grabbed him by his sweater.

"TRICIA PLEASE LET ME EXPL-" He looked scared as his tears kept flowing down his cheeks.

"THERE IS NOTHING TO EXPLAIN! YOU TOOK THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON FROM ME!" I slapped him across the face.

He rubbed his cheek that quickly turned red, tears flowing down his face as I glared at him.

"I thought... you were my friend... my best friend." My face softened as I held back my own tears. My breath heavy. I took a deep breath to tell him my final words.

"YOU DISGUST ME. DON'T TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN." I yelled and got out of there.

It's dark now and I ran with tears in my eyes back to the church's basement. Before I warped back, I tried to calm down. They can't see me like this. I wiped them away and eventually warped back. Walking fast, I returned to my room.

I layed down and curled into a ball, my back facing the room. I finally let the tears flow again. How could Sasha betray the Empire like this? How could he betray ME like this?! This is probably the reason why he stayed after school with me or kept apologizing at the hospital and... that dream.

That fucking bastard... did those two years of friendship mean nothing to him? I can't believe him. How.. could he..? I didn't want to lose him...

My phone vibrated. I took it out. It was our group chat, where all 6 of us are in. Sasha was kicked out. And Laura texted that they had heard what happened. They were also shocked. I didn't respond, I just left them on read. I went out of the chat and Sasha was typing on our private chat. Before he could finish, I blocked him.

He doesn't deserve forgiveness. Not after something like this. He knew how important my mom was to me. She was the best of the best. She gave me the happy ending that I always wished for. A loving family...

"It's all I ever wanted..." I said to myself and closed my eyes.

...

My alarm woke me up at 6 AM again. I shut it off and felt sick. I checked the school plan, today, all lessons are normal. I set my alarm to 30 minutes later and went back to sleep. I woke up again and didn't feel better.

"Fuck, I didn't even take off my jacket.." I mumbled and took it off.

I went to the kitchen and Scarlet was there as always. She greeted me but knew something was wrong. She asked me what was wrong. I didn't answer, instead I looked at the floor. I didn't have the strength to. She asked me if I felt sick. I nodded. She told me I could stay home today and that she would tell the teacher.

I thanked her and went back to my room to go back to sleep. I didn't dream of anything, but when I woke up, Ray and Dave texted me like 10 times:

"Why aren't you at school today?"

Or

"Are you ok?"

I felt a lot less tired. It's 9 AM, after all. I texted her back that it's related to yesterday. She asked if I wanna come over to Laura's place together. Honestly, some company would be nice. I texted 'sure'. She sent a smiley and went offline. At least I still have them.

They better not also be or become traitors. I'm not gonna make it if they are. Mentally and emotionally. Sasha is a great loss for me.

I got up and got dressed. I also brushed my hair and teeth. I realize now is the perfect time to explore the castle more. Especially the attic.

I should eat something first, though..

I went to the living room and as I passed by, a book mysteriously fell out of the shelf. I picked it up to put it back, but the cover peaked my interest.

Darkness 101: Spells of the Darkest Depths