Addicted to Green

CHAPTER 32

NAVINA

My eyes flutter open, the warmth of a body next to me makes me turn my head and I see caden. I smile faintly and I notice the light peeking through my room casting a glance on my white wall and I look back at caden seeing the light shining just below his soft face. He's right next to me as I'm furled in his hands and I feel a cool breeze go through me and I realize I'm with no clothes...

So is caden. I then think.

My hand is on his chest as i now realize and i look at his taunt muscles and tanned skinned, his skiing is soft. So soft and warm. I notice the little goosebumps form on his skin as i make a small circle. His arm covers around my shoulder his hand resting loosely on the side of my arm. O stare at his wrist trying to see... I wished I hadn't when my gaze went to his inner forearm. I frown sadly as i see raised skin in thin lines. Some white some brown, some looking a little fresh too... he said he stopped, right? But then again, i dont think someone can just stop hurting themselves like that.

I shake the thought. I look up at him. His eyes closed his long unruly im jealous eyelashes have a little shadow casting on his skin. His face resting and so... calm, i guess, so very calm. His hair fans over his eyebrows looking more straight than his usual wave still fluffy though. He is so perfect i can't. He is the most gorgeous man I have ever laid my eyes on. Its crazy how perfect he is. To his face to his body to even, to his hair eyes cheeks lips nose... those eyes. Their so... deep, so authentic.

Hes perfect, so mathematically perfect. Even if he doesn't see it himself. What's even better is in his arms... I feel safe, comfortable and protected. Protected form every f-ed up thing. Within his arms I don't feel so alone or isolated or ignored... I feel heard and seen. He bandaged my wounded heart determined its healing. He absorbed my every shake and tear, and replaced it with his own guarded, passionate heart, that i love all to much.

For the first time since I saw him, it felt as though he had opened up as well. We are drowned in each other's warmth and safety and preservation. We are protecting each other from all the shit that is life. All while the whole world watched it as well.

"You're staring." holy hell. His voice is so.... Just so. It's deep and timber. Then I realized what he said after I got out of the spell.

"No im not." i look away quickly my cheeks heating. I see him smirk in my peripheral vision but I don't make a move to look at him anyway and I just rest my head on his shoulder. Looking up at him I see his pale gray beautiful sleepy eyes.

"Okay, green." he speaks again and after a little i look up at him with those eyes i always have when looking at him. I can't help it. It just appears.

"What will happen when river goes to jail?" i than ask leaving out the part that is what will happen to caden... and us.... I hope he doesn't leave me like everyone else. I see Adam's apple bob as I watch him. His eyes flutter open again.

"I dont know."

I sigh and look back down. "It's almost one o'clock." I then mention trying to stop my thoughts from spiraling.

"Is your mom home?" he then asks.

"I don't think so. She might have gone to work since it's sunday. It's normally busy today too.'' I then said, My hand makes small circles on his chest again as I watch the wall intently.

"Hey." He then speaks with his hand that was around my arm and takes my hand. Are hands fuel and his warmth goes through me even more. "It's gonna be okay, green." he says. His voice going straight through me.

"Do you feel that?'' I then whisper to him furrowing my brows as I watch his hand intently. "That electricity.... That warmth.'' I then explained. When he doesn't speak I look up at him seeing a small smile gracing his lips as he watches my hand.