Addicted to Green

CHAPTER 30

NAVINA

I walk into my empty house. I slide my shoes off and i walk up stairs. I just came home from school and I'm exhausted. I haven't really been sleeping since the whole fiasco with River. I'm just so worried about caden and I don't know what to do. I would just talk to him but i dont think thats a really good idea to bring up...

My footsteps grow heavy as I try to walk up the stairs. My eyes are so heavy and dry. Once I make it to my room I slide my bag down on the ground and close my door. I change into sweatpants and a hoodie and slide into my comfy warm bed. I try to stay awake with my phone in hand and I scroll through it trying to keep my eyelids from closing but I ultimately fail and I start fading. Surrendering to the darkness.

"Hey. nav?" i hear a soft whisper of a voice and a tap on my shoulder and i peak my dry eyes open. Wincing at the little bits of light coming from my mirror in front of me. I look around and see caden in front of me. His expression soft and his pale eyes dark and alluring. I then looked at the window and saw the darkness. Oh gosh did i really sleep for that long? "Hey you awake sorry i just... you weren't answering your phone." he then whispers.

"It's okay.. What are you doing here?" I then whisper in my voice again while I try to get in a sitting position.

He shrugs. "I was worried. You weren't answering your phone." he then whispers.

I smile at the thought of him worried about me. "What time is it?'' I then asked. He furrowed his brows as he reached into his pants pocket while in a crouching position. His screen phone light shines in the room.

"Just passed eight." he then said.

I groan as I stretch. I stare as Caden smiles at me. I grab his hand. "Come." I'm trying to get him to sleep here tonight. It is friday so tomorrow there is no school. He sighs but ultimately slides his shoes off and climbs in.

He snuggles in and I turn , placing my hand on his chest and snuggling in the crook of his neck. He rests his head on mine as I move my blanket on us. "Is my mom home?" I then asked.

"I think so. I heard noise."

A faint smile dances on my lips as my eyes close a tad, fluttering. "I'm guessing you came through the window."

"You would be correct." he replies and i smile more. "Why are you so tired?" he than asks.

"I don't know. I just haven't slept much.'' I then say, my eyes fluttering more closed, his warmth coursing through me and the taunt hardness of his body next to me. He's so comforting. He is warm and safe.

"And why not?"

I sigh my eyes closing a little "because of what river said." i than say without thinking. He doesn't speak anymore and I stay silent. My mind going to different places as i fight now knowing if i should say it. I shouldn't, right? I shouldn't because he chose not to tell me. And it hasn't even come up. I shouldn't speak about it because I can't, I don't have a right. And what would i even say? That i know you hurt yourself? That I know you have a substance abuse problem? Or my favorite... the fact that you seem to have a 'history' with women that makes no sense?

"If you want to ask me something... ask."

I shake my head realizing he's speaking. I hear him gulp as I stop moving. "No i- i shouldn't.'' I then whispered back.

"If it's affecting you this much... then ask... it's okay. I trust you enough to tell you." he then said. I swallow the distastefulness in my mouth. I don't want to push... "come on green. I'm giving you a chance to pick my brain and your turning it down?'' I can practically feel his pained smirk.