Broken

Chapter 19

Chris pov...

"Chris stop... Please stop for a second..." Sammie moans out of breath pushing herself back as i was slipping my hands under her shirt. I could not resist the idea of her soft skin under my fingertips... Kissing her is exhilarating... Better than i even remember. I had gotten lost in the moment... She had kissed me and part of me just couldn't believe it... I am in heaven... Were i thought we are taking baby steps she just took an enormous leap... She told me she and Sophie will go with me... They will go with me to Boston where i will be filming my next project... 

But i immediately stop and pull my hands back... "Sorry..." I mumble and she sighs... "Dont be sorry... I kissed you first... It is just..." She sighs not finishing her sentence leaning her forehead against mine... "Can we pause for a second... I need a second to think... I can't think, kissing you..." She whispers and i run my hand through her hair. "Of course..." I whisper softly smiling not wanting to push my luck. I will take whatever she is willing to give me... I will take it as slow as she wants me to. But i wished she would not overthink this. 

"Did you mean it?" I ask and she looks at me confused. "Coming with me, you and Sophie?" I clarify and she sighs... "Yes..." She says and i smile... "You and Sophie are coming to Boston with me?" I say excited and her eyes grow wide... "Boston?" She says a little gasp escaping her as she looks at me with nothing but panic in her eyes her voice squeaky... "Yeah... My next project is in Boston... Did i not tell you this... We can stay at my place... Sophie can have her own room..." I say all excited... I am going to give my little girl the best room she can dream off... But my heart stops when Sammie stands up shaking her head... I am confused i could have sworn i told her... But what baffles me even more is her reaction... She looks at me like a deer in the headlights. 

"Excuse me... I need to... I need to uhm, yeah..." She says mumbling looking, afraid? Confused? Shocked? Her face is white as a sheet and her eyes... Her eyes are wide but dazed... She walks off leaving me there utterly confused. I sit there, waiting for her to come back but after 10 minutes i get worried... 

I stand up and walk towards her bedroom... I knock on the door but there is no answer... I slowly open the door the room is dark... I smile as i look at the bed thinking of the nap, we had taken there with Sophie... The little kiss we had shared... I look around the room and notice the bathroom door is closed. I walk closer to the door, i can hear her... I can hear her breathing heavy and i think she is crying. "Sammie...?" I say knocking on the door... I listen closely as i get no answer... I knock again... "Sammie?" I say a little louder as i feel myself getting panicked... I can clearly hear her... But she is not saying anything... Why is she not saying anything... I carefully try the door, but it is locked... "Sammie you are scaring me... Are you okay?" I ask through the door but still no answer... All of a sudden there is a loud crash as if something is dropping on the floor breaking and panic now really sets in... I take a few breaths as i realize that maybe she is panicking... I need to calm down so i can calm her down... I dont know why but it has to do with Boston...

"Sammie open the door..." I say loudly but trying my best to keep my voice steady as i think she is having a full-blown panic attack and doesn't need me making it worse by yelling... She is still not answering me... I can hear her stumble around and i have had enough i try the door again, but it is still locked... I push against the door to check how sturdy it is and where its weak points are... 

"Sammie i am coming in okay... Stay away from the door..." I say and bash my body into it... The door doesn't budge... My shoulder hurst but i dont care... I just want to get to Sammie... But just as i am about to do it again the door opens and my heart breaks and i am scared as she is in bad shape... Sammie is fully panicking her whole body shaking... She has managed to open the door but immediately her legs give out and i am just in time to catch her...