Broken

Chapter 45

Chris pov...

The rest of brunch goes by slow... I just want to go home and talk it out with Sammie... But seeing as Sophie is the guest of honor, we can't... Sammie and i are sitting next to each other, i hold her hand rubbing my thumb in circles over the back of it under the table. My mind is racing and i am so angry with myself... I can't lose her, i just got her back... I am so happy with my girls, and what do i do... Put my own foot in my mouth... I keep thinking about why i said it... Why on earth would i say such a vile and untrue thing... I dont even believe it... I can't even explain it to myself...

Our eyes meet every now and then but i can't read her. I can see the sadness in her eyes but that is it... The last thing she said was that she wanted to leave... I dont know if she still thinks like that and it is killing me... I dont want her to go... I dont know what i am going to do if she leaves... I can't live without her anymore... I look at the time again and i wanna go home but Sophie is having too much fun, i dont wanna spoil it for her. This is her afterparty and she is having the time of her life... If it were up to me, we were going home so we can talk this out... I want her to know how sorry i am... That i was out of line and an idiot... Sophie has currently found a new victim in Hemsworth and he is playing with her and teaching her some sort of Australian slang which Sophie finds hilarious. But soon she finds her way back to Seb crawling in his lap. Everybody smiles as she cuddles into him. "Call the press Sebastian Stan is of the market" Mackie yells. Everybody laughs but i shoot daggers at Mackie. This makes people only laugh harder... Seb just grins at me...

We are finally done with brunch, and everybody is either leaving to go home or back to their hotel rooms... Seb and Mackie had already checked out of the hotel as they had to hit the road... They and my family walk out with us since they drove up from New York together and are not bound by flight departure times.

I have my arm around Sammie, it gives me a little relief as she at least lets me... This gives me a little hope... A little hope that i could fix this... That i could apologize and make sure she knows i dont think like that... She is carrying Sophie in her arms. Ma is walking beside me, and my brother and sisters trail a few feet behind us laughing with Seb and Mackie as some of them had a bit too much of the mimosa's.  Carly's husband had already gone home with their kids as they had other obligations. It is chaos... Everyone is talking and laughing... 

Then all of a sudden there is a different kind of chaos... Not the loud family and friends' kind of chaos... But a panicked chaos... People are screaming and running... All of a sudden it is like time stands still I look around in confusion tightening my grip on Sammie... I see 2 flashes followed by two loud bangs...It is like time is standing still and everything goes in slow motion... I look to Sammie who looks back to me in shock.... I can feel her start to slip... Her face riddled with shock and fear before she slides out of my arms to the ground. I am just in time to catch Sophie who starts crying and screaming at the top of her longs...I look around and hand her over to Seb who together with Mackie had run over and now run off to duck for cover as i am shielding Sammie. Another few loud pops sounds through the chaos... I look at Sammie who looks back at me scared her hand on her thigh and when she puts them up, they are red. I look around in a panic as i pull her in my arms... My heart is racing as fear grips me... I look at her leg and see the blood gushes out... 

"Somebody! Call an ambulance!!!" I yell with tears in my eyes as i can see the blood coming out of the wound and desperately try to stop it by pressing my hand on it... "Chris... " Sammie says grabbing my shirt. She sounds strained and i can see her face go pale, i can literally see the blood drain from her face... I can see the fear and pain in her eyes... I am starting to panic as i frantically try to stop the bleeding holding her in my arms... "Shhhh baby it is going to be okay. You are gonna be okay, safe your strength okay..." I say over and over rocking her back and forth. "Chris..." She says again with tears in her eyes. "Promise you take good care of Sophie..." She says her voice strained but getting weaker... I shake my head... "Stop it baby you are gonna be okay..." I say and look around.... "Where is that bloody ambulance!" I yell tears now streaming down my face looking around... The chaos had died down, people are still hiding... But i can barely see anything through my tears...