Broken

Chapter 38

Chris pov...

I sigh hanging my head as Sammie walks off... I take another sip of my drink and sit down at the counter. Part of me just can't believe she asked me to stop the private security detail... I take yet another sip and try to calm down... I can hear a door open and close... I groan as all sorts of emotions run through my head... I want her to be happy... I really do but does she not understand i am doing this for her own good... To protect her and Sophie...

I walk to the window and look out... I know that i might be dramatic but as i look out into the world i can't help but want to protect Sammie and Sophie from it... Ever since finding out about Sophie... The world just seems to have become a dangerous place... Especially for women... And now that i had 2 in my life all i wanted to do was just protect them...  I sigh again... This is our first disagreement and i dont like it... I get it... Nothing had happened. Kim can't come anywhere near us, or she will be arrested... 

I am just so scared. Scared of losing Sammie and Sophie. Maybe i should not have said that she didn't seem to care... I know she cares... I know she cares very much... I also know she just finds it awkward to have them around every time that she leaves the house... Our picknick in the park for instance... They stayed at a distance, but Sammie was still hyper aware of them being there... She had tried to ignore them, pretend that they were not their... We had a really good time... But still... Maybe i should have listened and not have said no immediately... 

I sigh again getting angry with myself... I should not have yelled at Sammie... She just wanted to talk about it... Did she ask me to stop it? Or was it just the conclusion i had made from it all... She had said something about dialing it down... She is right... I am an asshole... I should have talked it over with her... I should have listened to what she had to say... Maybe we could have come to a compromise...

God how did the perfect evening turn out this way... I was over the moon when she said that she wanted to find a place together... It was such a significant step for us... It meant that she really was going to stay, that this was permanent... 

Oh god what if have fucked it up... What if she did not want to find a house together... I sigh and slam my drink back and pour myself another... I sit down and take a deep breath... But i look at my drink stand up and pour it down the drain... I dont want to get drunk... Getting drunk will not fix anything and will make tomorrow only more miserable... 

I sigh and walk back to the bedroom... I slowly push the door open and let out a sigh of relief to find Sammie asleep in our bed... At least she did not go to one of the guestrooms... She is asleep but her face does not look relaxed and i hate it... For a moment i debate waking her up but i dont and just crawl into bed... 

Were we normally fall asleep cuddled up, she is now as far away from me as possible. She is rolled up in a ball as if to protect herself... I try to clear my mind, but it is no use... Eventually exhaustion takes over... I dont know when i fell asleep but when i wake up the bed is empty, and the house is quiet... To quiet...

There is no music, no giggling. It had become some sort of ritual in the morning... A dance party and breakfast... Like Sammie had said, the best way to start your day... I jump out of bed... It is too quiet... Way to quiet... Fear sets in... What if she has left... Packed up Sophie and just left... I run to Sophie's bedroom and my heart drops seeing it empty... The bed is made... But all her stuff is still here... So, i try to calm myself and walk to the kitchen... The kitchen is empty... 

But i see a note at the coffee machine... 

Chris

Sophie and i went to the store to do some grocery shopping. You just have to turn on the coffee machine and there is breakfast in the fridge, you just have to warm it up. Oh and before you get your panties in a twist, i took the goon squad with me...