Broken

Chapter 6

Chris pov...

When i woke up Sammie and Sophie were still asleep. Sophie was still lying on my chest draped like a blanket and i can't help but smile at the wet spot on my shirt... She was out like a light and drooling. I am amazed by the fact how fast you could love another human being... From the moment i realized Sophie was my daughter i fell madly in love with her and i know i would move heaven and earth to have her in my life...Just like her mother i loved her from the moment i laid eyes on her...

 Sammie is lying with her back turned to me and balled up in the fetus position... I sigh as it feels like she is so far away again... I can still feel the kiss on my lips... The kiss of hope. But seeing her laying so far away from me her back turned to me made a little bit of that hope disappear... I could feel that she had pulled up her walls again... I know it sounds strange but i can just feel it... I wonder if i ever be lucky enough to call her mine again. I know i fucked up and it has been over 3 years... But God i never stopped loving her. I hate that i was such an idiot, letting people get in my head about her. I wish i could just cuddle up to her and wake her up with kisses... Just like i had done so many times... She always joked that sleeping was her hobby. But even more so just to be woken up by me... I wish i had ignored the people whispering in my ear... Life would have been so different right now. I would not have missed Sammie being pregnant... I would not have missed the birth and i would definitely had hold her hand through it all... I would not have missed 3 years of my little girl's life... 

"Daddy?" A sleepy voice said. I smiled as she called me daddy a warm feeling spreading through my body. Yep, hearing her call me daddy would never get old. Sophie clearly had no trouble accepting the news that i am her dad whatsoever... She adapted to it just like that... I am no longer Cwis... But i am daddy now... And it was amazing..."Yes sweetheart?"  I say and i couldn't help but have a big smile...I was a dad... Something i always wanted. My biggest dream had come through just not in the way i had imagined it... "I am hungry..."  Sophie says in her little sweet voice. i smiled at her. "Well let's go look for something to eat" i said smiling and untangled myself from Sammie and slipped out of bed. I lifted Sophie in my arms, and she giggled. I walked to the kitchen and put Sophie in her chair. I looked around i was a little out of my depth here, breakfast was easier but dinner i had no idea. I dawned on me i didn't even know what Sophie liked or disliked or if she had allergies.

"Are you looking for something?" Sammie asks standing in the doorway. I sighed and hung my head. "I wanted to make dinner but i dont know if she has allergies or what she likes or dislikes."  Sammie smiled. "No allergies." She says smiling "She is not a fuzzy eater. I have to go shopping so maybe we can order something."  She asks and i nod. She pulls out her phone. "Sophie, do you want pizza?" Sophie got all excited flailing her little arms around making me laugh... "Yessss." She cheers..."PIZZA!" I started laughing even harder as it is just so cute. 

"Wow she really likes pizza, huh?" I ask and Sammie smiles "Yes she does." Sammie ordered dinner. "Now what do you say we get you cleaned up?" Sammie says to Sophie. "After dinner we can play a game." Sophie had a big smile on her face, "Okay mommy, can daddy help?" Sammie smiled, "Of course." Sammie said before looking at me. "Just wash her hands and face, that will be fine she doesn't have to change out of her pj's." 

I took Sophie to her bathroom and put her on the counter. I helped her wash her hands and face. "Daddy?" There it was again...that one little word that held so much power now. It makes my heart jump every time... "Yes sweetheart?"   She looked at me for a second as if she was thinking about something very serious. "Do you love mommy?" She asks me. I look at her in shock this wasn't the question i was expecting to come up. "I care for your mommy very much sweetheart." She was thinking about my answer. "Are you go away again?" she says looking at me her eyes sad as soft sob escaping her... It breaks my heart... The sad look the pout and a little tear running down her cheek...