Broken

Chapter 70

Sammie pov...

I was sitting in the doctor's office, Chris has been gone for 2 weeks now and although we all miss him like crazy, we are doing alright.... That is until i started to throw up in the mornings. So, after panicking and thinking it couldn't be. I finally had the courage to take a home pregnancy test which came back positive. For a day i had been numb and in utter shock before i decided to go to a doctor.

I had taken Sophie and Julia to Lisa telling her i needed to run some errands and she was more than happy to help out. So now i was sitting in the doctor's office again... Cursing myself for being so careless. I just had a baby i thought to myself slightly panicking. Maybe it was a false positive and had i been just having a stomach bug. But deep down i knew i was pregnant.

The doctor came in smiling with the test results. "Well..." He said smiling. "The test was right you are pregnant...." I let out a sigh, i knew it. It was no surprise but i was scared to tell Chris. I talked with the doctor, but he didn't tell me anything i already knew. I drove to Lisa to pick up the girls and after staying for dinner i drove home with to sleeping girls in the back.

I had already put them to bed when Chris called. "Hey baby." He said smiling at me. "Hey." I said smiling back.

"Where are the girls?" He asked. "Sorry they are already in bed they spend the afternoon at your mothers when i went to ...." I couldn't finish the sentence as panic sets in.

"Please dont be mad..." I say in a small voice. "Baby you are scaring me... what is going on?" I took a deep breath. "Okay here we go" I said taking another deep breath.

"I haven't been feeling very well the last few days... and i uhm... took a ...test... And this afternoon i went to the doctor to confirm... please dont be mad." I said again this time with tears in my eyes.

"I am pregnant...." The line stayed silent for a moment... "What? How!?" was all he said... 

I looked at him giving him a look from are you serious. "I know how." He said rolling his eyes. "But i thought... " His voice getting louder. "Yeah, well apparently not" I said.

"We just had a baby..." He said looking into the phone shocked. "No shit Sherlock." I said getting a little annoyed. "What are we going to do?" He said looking at me with a look in his eyes i couldn't place. "What do you mean what are we going to do?" I say now really annoyed.

"We are going to have another baby...." I said getting agitated. "Sammie..." He said shaking his head. "What Chris? Did you think i planned it this way.... That i thought well let's have another one straight away... For fuck's sake Chris.... I scoffed. You know what ..." I could hear Julia crying on the baby monitor. "I have to go." I say as i am feeling myself getting angry. "Julia is awake."

"Sammie please i didn't..." I sigh. "Good night, Chris." I said ending the call. I walked to the nursery and got Julia from the crib sitting down in the rocking chair to feed her. I finally broke down crying and sobbing. In the distance i heard my phone ring and i knew it was Chris but right now i couldn't care less. Yes, i was in shock to, and i get it but this reaction i did not expect from the guy that said he wanted a big Boston family. I felt like he blamed me for getting pregnant again like there weren't two people necessary for that.

The rest of the week i had not talked to Chris and when he called i had immediately handed him to Sophie who was more than happy to talk to her dad. Every time he asked her to give me the phone i pretended to be busy and let her talk for a bit to him before they said goodbye. Morning sickness was kicking my ass being worse than with my previous pregnancies combined. I cursed the name Morning sickness as it was the whole day. Tomorrow Chris would come home and what should have been a happy occasion i was now dreading.