Broken

Chapter 44

Chris pov...

I wake up and look at the time, it is 8 in the morning. I turn around i see Sammie asleep next to me. But as i see her peacefully sleeping, her words of last night come rushing back. Saying she wanted another baby... Begging me to put a baby into her. Part of me found it a real turn on and i went along with it, caught up in the heat of the moment. But did she really want another baby? I always wanted a big family that is no secret but i was just getting used to having her and Sophie around. I didn't know if i was ready to split the attention between Sophie and another child. I know i should have brought it up right after but i didn't know what to say so i just pulled her into me and had fallen asleep. 

 I hear a faint sound coming from Sophie's room so i slip out of bed to get Sophie. As i carry her on my arm to the kitchen i notice that the kitchen is spotless except for the bench in the window the blanket is not folded and i can see the pillows are being scattered around it. Sammie must have cleaned the kitchen after i fell asleep and then sat in the window. I let out a sigh. I had not even noticed her getting out of bed... How long has she been up for after i had fallen asleep... The kitchen was a mess when we went to bed and now... Now it is like there never even had been a party...

I pour Sophie some milk and make myself some coffee. I smile as we talk about her birthday party yesterday. Sophie is all smiles and giggles.  It warms my heart to see she had a good time... She had been spoiled... Everyone loved her...  After finishing her milk and my coffee, i got Sophie showered and dressed. Putting her in her favorite dress... I put Sophie in front of the TV so i could take a quick shower myself. As long as you put on the little mermaid, she would be okay for a few minutes... 

As i walk through the bedroom i can see Sammie is still asleep, probably exhausted. I shower quick so that Sophie isn't alone to long. My mind is racing on how to bring last night up with Sammie... When i come out of the shower the bed is empty... I hear Sammie talking to Sophie in the hallway... The little mermaid apparently did not hold her attention long enough... I walk into the bedroom to get dressed and i see Sammie's strip of birth control laying on the dresser. I start to count the pills when i hear a voice behind me. 

"Dont worry..." Sammie says in an ice-cold tone making me freeze on the spot... "I have taken them" She says and i turn around to be met by an annoyed looking Sammie..."No need to check if i am taking them... I won't trick you into having another baby." I was about to say something, but she walks into the bathroom and locks the door. "Shit!" I say to myself and run my hand through my hair... I know i fucked up... Especially because she never locks the bathroom door... I groan annoyed with myself... I get dressed and walk to the living room where Sophie is sitting watching TV. When Sammie is ready and walking into the living room i look at her and i can see she has been crying and i curse myself.

"Can we talk?" I say as i stand up and Sammie nods and walks into the kitchen. "Look about last night and this morning..." I start but she holds up her hand and i look at her perplexed. "Dont worry Chris..." She says her voice cold and distant but i can see the pain in her eyes... I feel like an asshole and i feel myself getting annoyed... But she wont let me talk. "I get it ... You dont trust me, but dont worry i take my birth control. I would never get intentionally pregnant behind your back... I can't believe you would think i would trick you into having another baby. I was emotional yesterday so let's forget it. It was just the heat of the moment combined with all kinds of emotions of the worst and best day of my life."

"I do trust you..." i say taking a step closer to her as i want to hug her but she steps away.... She scoffs. "Could have fooled me, someone that trusts someone isn't counting their partners birth control. I am sorry if i freaked you out but that is no reason to treat me this way, like i am some girl trying to trick you..." She says looking at me. "Well can you blame me?! You hid my daughter from me for 3 years!" I yell and as soon as i had said it i regretted it. I didn't mean it, i never blamed her for it. It was mostly my fault i wouldn't listen when she tried to tell me. "And there it is..." She says tears in her eyes. I just look at her as i can't believe i just said that... I can't believe i could say such a vile thing... "Sammie... I..." I stutter and take a step closer... But as i do she takes a step back... The look on her face is one of pain and disbelief and before i can say anything else we get interrupted by Sophie....