Broken

Chapter 15

Chris pov...

I wake up feeling dazed... Sammie is still tucked into me... I smile as she looks so peaceful... But that smile quickly disappears, all of a sudden panic sets in... What time is it...? I take my phone and my eyes grow wide... I fucked up... I fucked up... "Shit, shit, shit.... Sammie!" I say panicked... She groans... "I am so sorry... I fucked up... I am so sorry... I set an alarm... But it didn't go off..." I say now in full panic mode... "Heard it... Turned it off... Come cuddle i am cold..." She murmurs half asleep and pulls me back... I would have smiled because it is darn cute, if it didn't mean Sophie was at daycare... Waiting, wondering why mommy was not coming to pick her up. God she must be so scared. "Sammie...! You have to pick up Sophie...! Omg i already am fucking up as a dad...!" I say not getting why she is so calm, maybe she is still half asleep... "Sammie!" I say a little louder shaking her...

Sammie sighs and finally opens her eyes... "Sophie is with Sara. I texted her... Sara has picked her up... Is taking her for pizza and after that will drop her off here..." Sammie says and i feel my whole body relax. "Oh..." I say letting out this massive sigh and Sammie hums and pulls my arms around her again... "I am cold..." Sammie whispers and i a smile forms on my face again as i pull her tighter in my arms... 

"Go back to sleep... You are going to need all the energy you can get. Knowing Sara, Sophie will be all hyper when she gets back..." Sammie mumbles and i smile... "I dont care... I just feel relieved... I thought i fucked up..." I mumble and then the most beautiful sound fills the room... A giggle... "You were out like a light to... Sara had offered earlier to take Sophie out of daycare... So, i texted her... We both could use a little more rest..." She mumbles wriggling in my arms... I chuckle as i remember this... This little wriggle was her attempt to basically crawl into me... It was a beautiful Deja Vue... 

But i can't sleep anymore... I had gotten such a surge of adrenaline that i was wide awake... I wasn't going to move though. Nope... Not a chance... I was not going to ruin this moment. I was going to hold her as long as she would let me... I know that the fact she was so emotionally drained and tired, probably was the reason she would let me... But i was not going to question it... I was going to enjoy it for as long as i could... What makes it even better is the fact that she is not sleeping either... She moves every now and then letting out a little hum... She is cuddling me fully aware that she is doing it...

My mind is racing though a little hope is brewing... Is this the start of us? Is this the first baby step to fixing us... God i hope so... I know we have a lot of talking to do and it will not be fixed overnight but this... Having her here in my arms... It is giving me hope... The hope that we can. 

Sammie lets out a big sigh... "Thank you..." She whispers all of a sudden, breaking the silence and i look down into her eyes... "For what?" I say a little unsure and she hums... "For letting me sleep... for choosing... U... Sophie..." She mumbles and i pull her into me even more if that is possible... "I know you have no reason to believe me... I know i have a lot to make up for... But i promise i will always choose you and Sophie..." I mumble and she sighs again... "Just be there for Sophie... That is all we ask from you... Be her dad..." She hums. I grin... To be referred to as dad still makes my heart flutter followed by a warm feeling spreading through my body... 

All of a sudden, we hear a door slam shut followed by a. "Hello!" Sammie shoots up and scrambles off the couch and i sigh... I guess our moment is over... I get up to feeling a bit sad, but that sadness quickly gets pushed back when i hear little footsteps... "DADDY!!!" I little hyper bouncing ball comes running in followed by the woman i recognize from the bar and restaurant... Sophie runs up to me and jumps in my arms and i smile lifting her up throwing her in the air making her squeal... "Auntie Sasa got me... We had pizza and ice cweam!" She rattles and i see what Sammie meant with hyper, as she is bouncing up and down on my arm rattling on... In the corner of my eyes i see Sammie and Sara hug... I am a bit nervous with Sara here... Yes, she advocated for me, but she probably knows everything so i feel like i am meeting her on a disadvantage... But i focus back on Sophie.

"You did? Lucky girl..." I say kissing her cheek making her giggle... "Sasa... Look my daddy..." She squeals proudly pointing at me, almost poking my eye out and Sara smiles and nods... "Nooo... That is your dad? Aren't you a lucky girl..." She says and i blush as Sophie beams. Sammie just watches the interaction with a soft smile on her face. Sara walks over to me... "Sara Perry..." She says holding out her hand and i shake it... "Chris Evans..." I say and she gasps putting her hand on her chest... I look at her confused... "Noooo... Really? THE Chris Evans... Wauw..." She pokes me on my arm and i look utterly confused while Sophie giggles and when i look at Sammie she is rolling her eyes... 

"So real..." Sara says, a smirk appearing on her face and Sammie chuckles... "Okay that is enough Sara..." Sammie says. I smirk and shake my head... "Nice to meet you... Heard a lot about you..." I say and she smiles... "Nice to meet you to... Heard a lot about you to..." Sara says and i blush... "All good things, i hope," I say, and she smirks... "No..." She says brutally honest... "Sara!" Sammie scolds her as Sara just smirks at me... "Lighten up Evans! Just messing with you." Sara says and i let out a little sigh...

"Okay i am going back home..." Sara says and she kisses Sophie on the cheek... "Bye, bye butterfly..." She says to Sophie who giggle... "Bye, bye Fruit fly..." Sophie answers and giggles... I guess that is a thing... "See you around Evans..." Sara says and i smile and nod. "You can count on it..." I say wanting to let her know that i am not going anywhere before i watch Sara and Sammie walk back to the front door...

"Daddy, can we watch Ariel...?" Sophie asks putting her hands on my face and i smile... "Of course..." I say and hug her close... I take a deep breath taking in her scent just happy to hold and hug her... She is mine... My daughter and she is amazing...