Lookism: What Am I Even Doing?

Chapter Seventeen

Jiho isn't at school today. During first break I made sure to head to the fashion department room to see if things got any better. Of course they didn't. I wanted to ask Daniel if Jiho had contact him but I didn't want him to know I knew about his two bodies. In the end I'll have to end up waiting until tonight to see if anything changes.

For the sake of that troublesome kid, I hope he's come to his senses somewhere. I know Jiho got himself into this mess but sometimes when your cornered, people start realize everything that they've done wrong. Your life flash before your eyes and all you can is you pathetic life put on display before you.

As you eyes flutter for their last moments you think to yourself, what an idiot I've been. When I died after the pain began to fade and reached towards the dark, I wanted to do nothing more than yell at the top of my lungs. I wasn't mad that I was dying, I wasn't mad at the damn driver for going above the speed limit.

I was just so angry with myself. I've heard that you're supposed to see all the beautiful moments of your life. All I saw was my pathetic figure cowering in my room, afraid to step outside because of all the unresolved messes. I didn't want to confront any of them. I felt like I couldn't. But if I had tried a little harder then maybe things could've changed.

But I chose to be a coward didn't I? I chose to hide in my own fantasies and look where that got me. Was I really happy for a single moment of my life or did I have to force it upon myself? Either way I just hope that the person I am right now is better. Though crazy, I think I've gained even the tiniest bit of courage.

I clenched my fists. Sometimes that's all it takes.

As we walked into the cafeteria hall I heard a familiar voice. One that was loud and obnoxious but still sweet. In less than a second I was able to pick out her orange-red hair in the crowd. What the hell was Viola doing here! She told me she was arriving today but I didn't expect to see her so soon. At my school even less!

Viola was wearing a beautiful teal sweater that hung low on her shoulders and a pair of high waisted jeans. Her luxurious wavy hair hung loosely around her figure as she laughed. A large crowd of people, mostly guys had already surrounded her. I shoved away a handful of guys. All of them landing on their butts.

"You...what are you doing here?"

Her whole body beamed as she lunged at me, "Aw! Ila! Look at you! Oh, I missed you! You're still as cute as I remember! And wow! Look at those arms! Have you been working out?"

My whole face went red, "What are you doing at my school! How did you even get in here!"

She pouted, "Eh, come on, don't be mad at me! I just couldn't wait to see you! And it was actually pretty easy! I went up the front office and told them I was your older sister! Hehe-all I had to do was flash this pretty smile of mine!"

People were already starting to whisper. Sister? They look nothing alike. Should I get her number? Fucking idiots! Can't they learn to mind their own damn business!

I grabbed her by the arm, "Let's go. You can't be here."

"Aw, come on! But there are so many cuties here." She winked in Daniels direction. Oh god, someone kill me please, "Hey sweetheart! She's sin-"

I covered her mouth with my hand and then tossed her over my shoulder. My whole body was on fire. What the hell was she thinking coming here and making a commotion! I wouldn't mind that much is she did this at the chicken shop but this was so embarrassing! Everyone was looking at us too! This is why I didn't want to text her in the first place.

"Remember girlies! The secret to great skin is to take down your enemies!"

Actually...HOW THE HELL DID SHE KNOW WHERE I GO TO SCHOOL?! I never fucking told her. Hell, I never told anyone from back home. I rushed out of the cafeteria. Once we went out the doors I dragged her by the collar of her shirt to the back of the school.