Lookism: What Am I Even Doing?

Chapter 63

(Daniel's POV)

The day Ila died, a lot of things were happening. God Dogs had been more active than usual and I had failed to notice it. Johan Seong, the leader of the group at that time, personally asked me to join his group. We were friends. I desperately wanted both of us to acknowledge that. We've been through enough things together for us to know each other well.

So why did he have to think that way? Johan Seong was a good kid. I sincerely believed that. He was only lost. His mind was twisted with premature ideas of money and power. What he didn't realize was that through his power and money driven haze, he was building enemies within his own group.

Fear can never efficiently rule a group.

They turned against him right in front of me, being so cowardly enough to strike him in the back. Johan was too strong to lay down though. He finished what the rest of the God Dog started until he was the only one left standing. Though, just because he was stronger than them, doesn't mean he was invincible.

Gun, that man was a mystery to me. What was made clear was that he was dangerous. You see, this was a man of true power. I wouldn't be surprised if he was the strongest man in Seoul. What did take me a bit off guard was to find out he was Johan's mentor of sorts. Even more so that a teacher could so blindly kick away their student.

Wasn't it the role of the teacher to guide their students to success? Talent could only take you so far. And then he asked me to be his next student? I honestly don't know why all these people find me so interesting. There's only one goal I have in mind, to protect my friends.

Up to now, the Four Major Crews have been responsible for the most hurting moments of my life. In one way or another, they've all butted into my life and destroyed friendships, hurt the people I care about, and got me death threats from rich businessmen. I'm tired of it.

Unite the Four Major Crews?

Why would I do that when they've caused me so much pain?

I had the idea tight in my mind that I would do my best to bring them down.

Then...that box showed up on my door. I've kept the flashdrive in my backpack for the past week now but I don't know what I'm supposed to do with it. Part of me knows there should be no hesitation in making the decision but I'm not asking myself whether or not I should look into it. It's more of wondering who else I should tell.

There are so many people that she knew but if this really had something to do with the Four Major Crews I had to take some things into consideration. For one, whoever sees the contents of this flashdrive...they'll never be able to step away from this. These crews were dangerous. The more people I involve in this, the more lives I'll be putting in danger.

But they deserve to know.

There was a light tap on my desk as I zoned out for the tenth time today. The teacher gave me a look but said nothing. Usually she'd be quick on calling us out. For a while, we've been given leeway after what happened to Ila. Some of the teachers who taught her even came to the funeral as well. So it wasn't just the students who had a break.

Jay gave me a concerned look. I smiled at him then looked back at the front of the class. It wouldn't be wise to talk right now. Instead, I carefully tore out one of the pieces of my notebook. When I was done writing I handed it to him.

Don't worry, I'm just a bit tired.

"..."

If I need to talk about anything he'll be there to listen?

Haha. Jay was really sweet. Now that I think about it, he interacted with Ila a couple times as well. He'd been at the funeral but he mostly stayed next to himself at the back of the hall. We met eyes on the way out. He offered to give me a ride home but I needed the time to think for myself.