Lookism: What Am I Even Doing?

Chapter Forty-Two

*Warning: Vague description and mention of sexual assault*

What the hell was happening right now? Eun looked around my room with boredom. Her eyes landed on the pills laying on my desk and she smiled. She reached over to grab them. I tried to stop her but as soon as I tried to get up the world began to tip to the side and I was thrown back against the bed.

Eun brought the bottle close to her face then shook it lightly, "Looks like someone is a little crazy. Tell me...do they actually make you feel good? If they do, can I have some?"

I gritted my teeth, "What the hell are you doing here? And how the hell do you even know where I live?"

She put the pills back on my desk, "I thought I told you to be careful."

Excuse me? What the hell?

I don't give a fuck what she thinks she told me. Right now, I had every right to call the cops on her. Hell, I barely even knew who this girl was. We met by chance in a damn alleyway and looking back at it now, it almost looks like she's been following me. Why else would I never see here at the convenience store or in this area until after that day?

I don't like the way she acts so casually around me either.

Was she actually stalking me? But I'm pretty sure I would've noticed someone following me around. I'm a bit stupid but not oblivious to my surroundings. Especially to someone who I didn't trust already.

All I knew for sure at this moment was that I wanted this crazy piece of shit out of my room. There were two things that I could do to get her out of here in my current state. The more plausible out of the two is to yell bloody murder until someone came in here and dragged her out of her.

The only fucking thing with that is that I don't think I could find the energy. Even right now, my voice was barely above a hoarse whisper. If I showed any sign of trying to yell out there was no telling what this girl would do either. As crazy as she was she'd probably clamp my mouth closed until I ran out of energy. After that...who knows what she would do.

My other option...I looked at my phone at the corner of my desk. Eun's eyes curled at the edges as she understood what I wanted to do. I glanced at her and she smirked at me.

"Go ahead. It's right there."

The way she said it made my blood run cold. She knew that my body was too weak to ever get to it and she wanted me to know that. If anything, she found it amusing that I would even think to do something so obviously impossible. Still...I couldn't just stay in here with her.

I flipped over to my side and reached for my phone. I let out a small line of muffled groans as my fingers barely grazed over the edge of it. Eun let out a small little laugh as I struggled. My arms started to burn as I desperately willed my body to stretch a little further.

"Oh! Oh! There we go! You're almost there!" Without warning, my arm dropped until it was hanging over the edge of the bed. Eun smacked her hands together, "Ah, what a shame! It really looked like you'd get it for a second there."

For once in this life I felt genuine fear as she leaned over me. Her shadow swallowed my body whole. I let out an involuntary flinch as she brushed her fingers against the side of my face as she brushed my hair aside. I glanced at her with shaking eyes as I let out tired pants from the physical exertion I just did.

Her eyes slowly wandered from my face all the way down to the rest of my body which laid half covered in sheets. I tried to turn myself over, to pull the covers over me, to do anything to make myself feel safe from her wandering eyes. It was all useless though, I couldn't move anymore.