What A Beautiful Face She Has

Witness

Stella's POV:

I was not able to control my tears. I just wanted to reach my house, lock myself inside the room, and cry.

I never felt this much humiliated ever in my life.

I was constantly wiping my tears, and the auto man was looking at me, wondering why I was crying.

As soon as I reached my house, I paid the auto driver and headed inside the house.

"I hope he's not in the living room. Iniku dha Sunday ache. Engayachum oru sutha poi irupaaru."
(It’s Sunday, today. He must’ve gone somewhere to hang out.)

The door was open, and I sensed that he's at home.
"Seri, room la irukanum avaru, he should not see me like this, partha he'll also humiliate me."
(Fine, he must be in his room. He shouldn’t see me like this. If he does, he’ll also humiliate me.)

I entered into the house only to find him sitting on the sofa watching TV.

I didn’t utter a word and walked past him.

"Stella?", he called me.

I just turned towards him and didn’t reply.

"Enna, adhukulla vandhuta? Oh, pona velai mudinji irukum, nalla saptutu vandhiya?"
(What, you're already back? Oh, your work must be over. Did you eat well and come?)

I closed my eyes in frustration.

Author: "Dei, paithiyam. Already, ava mood out la iruka. Nee vera eriyira thee la ennaiya oothuriya?"
(Idiot. She’s already upset, and you’re adding fuel to the fire?)

"Enna? No response?", he came towards me.

"Apdi keela enna irukunu your eyes are fixed on the floor? Look at me."
(Why are your eyes fixed on the floor like that? Look at me.)

He made me look into his eyes.

His smile dropped seeing tears in my eyes.

"Why are you crying?", he asked.

I nodded ‘nothing.’

"Oh, un boyfriend unna thiteetana?"
(Oh, did your boyfriend scold you?)

My eyes widened and I gave him a confused look.

"Ada, ama la. Unna madhiri oru fat chick ku epdi boyfriend lam irukum? Naan oru idiot."
(Oh yeah right. How can a fat chick like you even have a boyfriend? I’m such an idiot.)

I was disgusted to the core. I stumbled slightly, not able to handle the pain.

Already they humiliated me, and this guy is adding fuel to the fire.

"You know something, naan unna endha oru kavalaiyum illama veliya anupalam. You know why? Because, yaarum unna madhiri oru gundu ponna yer eduthu parka matan and I can stay peacefully knowing that my wife will not get any guy for herself to cheat on me."
(You know something? I can send you out without a worry. You know why? Because no one will ever look at a fat girl like you, and I can live in peace knowing my wife can never get a guy to cheat on me.)

My heart was racing, and I couldn’t handle the pain. I was going breathless.

I was experiencing anxiety attack symptoms.

I pushed him and mumbled, “Get lost,” and locked myself inside the room.

I started crying, thinking about my fate.

Is it my fault that I’m fat? Why is everyone humiliating me?
I might be able to endure other's words, but I cannot handle my husband’s.
I can even take his body-shaming…