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One of my favorite ones to write

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I grabbed my keys. Leaving my phone behind. I left a single message

Y/n- at least have the balls to say something to my fucking face

Arlo came along and I wasn't going to stop him.

This Night Has Opened My Eyes blasted on my speakers. What a fucking coincidence. I couldn't help but chuckle.

This night had opened my eyes

And I will never sleep again

You kicked and cried like a bullied child

A grown man of 25

Oh he said he's cure your ills

But he didn't and he never will

I didn't even know where I was going. I just needed to move. I needed to do something. Anything. I walked into the store. Buying some chips. I instinctively grabbed the takis. Fuck me man. I threw them in the cart. I grabbed a coke and Jack Daniel's. I also grabbed some mikes cause fuck it.

Arlo walked with me to the car. Barking every once in a while and I was too distracted to make him stop barking. The cashier I usually get tried making small conversation but I couldn't fake it so I just quickly tapped my card on the machine.

I put all the drinks in the trunk. Arlos big mouth was opened and I just smiled at him softly. "I'll get you a treat bud. Once we get home". He whimpered so I opened the window.

She could have been a poet
or, she could have been a fool
Oh, she did a bad thing

I drive around for a little.
Every question from before still repeating itself in my head. But this time I questioned myself.

Did I do something wrong?
Was I just too needy?

 
At this point, my body was driving while I was just thinking about what I could have done better. It was a constant argument with myself. Eventually, I parked. I didn't know where my brain drove me. It's like when you drive home but in reality, you don't recall driving or you don't recall the way you took. It was that feeling.

And im not happy
And im not sad

I turned off my car placing my keys in my pocket. I still felt a lump in my throat. It had been forming since I saw those pictures. I wanted to scream and punch around like a little kid. But I also wanted to crawl into her bed and just hide under the blankets crying in silence.

Crying until I felt sick to my stomach.

Arlo looked up at me happy. He recognizes this as our usual walking spot. This place brought me lots of joy at one point too Arlo. I scratched behind his ear and he smiled or it looked like he was smiling. I love this motherfucker. I hugged his big head. "At least I still have you". I looked into his big eyes. God he's the reason I met her in the first place.

"Okay come on let's go walk". I grabbed my backpack and got all the liquor and other snacks out of it. One big ass fucking walk. I also totally forgot to bring Arlo his leash so he was just walking besides me.

We walked past the usually busy part of the trail and then I headed to my part of the trail. The memories of our first date flooded my mind.