𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞: 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦

Chapter 15

Sobrang masaya ako.

Sobrang masaya ako dahil nagiging totoo na siya sa akin, na kaya na niyang sabihin ang mga bagay na tinatago niya noon pa man. Maliban pa roon, nagiging tapat din siya sa nararamdaman niya. I felt like I was able to gain his trust in someone again. I knew it takes a lot of steps to open yourself to someone, and he's getting there each day he's with me and with his friends. Hindi na siya katulad ng old self niyang mysterious, secretive, and intimidating.

"You're going to sing a song for me?"

Tumango ako sa tanong niya. Right after having a heart to heart talk, I suddenly said that I'm going to sing a song for him. I practiced for this song... because I knew this is his favorite.

Kinuha ko ang gitara niya. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko ba'ng mag-gitara, pero ang alam ko kakayanin ko. I poured myself much into music; I delved myself into it most of the time. Kaya kakayanin ko. This time, I wanted to perform for him perfectly. Gusto ko na maisip niya rin ang naiisip ko-na itong pagkanta ko sa kaniya ay best gift na matatanggap niya ngayon.

I strummed his guitar according to the chords of the song.

"Anata wa kizuku futari wa aruku... kurai michi demo hibi terasu tsuki..."

Even the two of us should go a dark road... The moon will illuminate our days...

Although his face hadn't reacted, his eyes were. It went doe and raw... Parang may nasagi akong memory sa utak niya.

"Nigirishimeta te hanasu koto naku... omoi wa tsuyoku, eien chikau..."

Never letting go of your hand... Our feelings are strong, and we vow it's for all eternity...

Ang dating bilog ng kaniyang mga mata ay unti-unting lumiliit. Perhaps he could see me blurry now. Nakikita ko ang namumuong luha sa kabila ng kislap ng kaniyang mga mata.

I knew he thought of his sister right after listening to the first stanza of the song I sang. I felt sorry all of a sudden; I triggered that memory and that emotion.

"Eien no fuchi kitto boku wa iu... omoi kawarazu onaji kotoba wo..."

Eternally recurring... I will surely say the exact same words...

"Soredemo tarizu namida ni kawari... Yorokobi ni nari kotoba ni dekizu..."

But those words will never cease... Still not enough, it will turn into tears...

"Yorokobi ni nari, kotoba ni dekizu..."

Become a joy, unable to speak...

"Tada dakishimeru tada dakishimeru..."

I just hold you... I will just hold you...

Kinanta ko ang chorus na malungkot dahil umiiyak na siya. He created a pained voice while crying; he even held his chest as if he's hurting. Napapikit ang kaniyang mga mata, dinadama ang sakit na nararamdaman niya.

After I sang the song, I gently put the guitar down on the floor and hugged him tightly. I kept whispering 'sorry' behind his painful sound of sobs he created. Nang dahil doon ay napaluha na rin ako. I didn't mean to harm him... I thought he would love to listen to me singing his and his sister's favorite song. I was wrong. I definitely made a mistake.

"Sorry, Haru... Sorry..." I cried. "Ang akala ko kasi... magugustuhan mo... Sana kumanta na lang ako ng ibang kanta..."

I was panicking because he's still sobbing. I tried to calm him down, but I guess that didn't work. Kaya ang ginawa ko na lamang ay niyakap siya habang nakikinig sa masakit niyang pag-iyak... hanggang sa kaya na niya akong kausapin muli.