Vodka Kisses

0421- She's Come Undone

"Hey." Logan says dropping his bag by my desk, he went home to grab some spare clothes.

He immediately gets into bed beside me, wrapping me in his arms.

"The girls thought I should tell you this. I think it's important not to tell you. They were all at my house talking and they wanted, needed you to know." He says.

"What is it?" I ask feeling something for the first time since this went down.

"Ezra, is writing a book about what happened to Ali. He's not A. He was using Aria and you guys to figure out what happened." He tells me.

"Fuck!" I jolt up.

Aria.

"It's okay, calm down, they're there with Aria right now. It's okay." He pulls me back into him.

Fuck, another step further away from figuring out from who A is.

Yet another relationship destroyed.

I'm scared and feel so sick.

Why is this a never ending circle?

"Then who the fuck is A?" I ask Logan like he has the answer.

"I don't know who it is, but we're going to figure it out." He holds me tighter.

"How's Aria?" I ask with worry.

"I don't know. She's looking a bit pale but ultimately okay." He tells me.

I have no clue where my phone is.

"Can you text her and tell her that I love her." I tell him.

"Yes." He smiles and kisses my head.

****

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Dad asks, sitting down on my window seat.

"I'm okay." I give him a soft smile.

"You sure?" He asks and I nod.

"Okay well I need to tell you something. Your mom can't look you in the eye." I immediately feel so sick.

"We're flying out next week to Seattle to see a specialist about your mom. She's fine but we just want to make sure and get it as soon as we can if there if anything there." He admits to me.

Fuck.

God I'm going to be so sick.

I shoot out of bed and make it as far as my trash can before I start throwing up into it.

"Pip?" Dad comes begging me and strokes my back.

"I'm okay." I get out between throwing up.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't want to keep it from you. We were going to tell you last night over dinner but then everything happened and we wanted to make sure you'd be okay with both of us going. If you're not your mom is pressuring me to reschedule but I'd rather not. Logan will be here and I can stay but if you want your mom here we can reschedule." He tells me.

I push back from my trash can.

"Please both go. I'll be with Logan the whole time, I'll be okay. Don't let this, stop her from progressing her life. Please." I beg.

"I'm sorry pip that you're going through this." He kneels down beside me and wraps me in his arms.

"I'm sorry I've put you through this, it can't be easy with everything already going on." I pout against his shoulder.

"You've nothing to be sorry for. I just wish you'd let me help you some more." He says softly.

So I do.

He tucks me back into bed, kisses the top of my head as Logan comes back with some water.

Logan slips into bed beside me, my dad takes my trash can downstairs to clean it out whilst I lie on my back, thinking about anything but drugs and alcohol.

It's easier to focus on Logan as his legs intertwine with mine and he holds me to him. I can feel the beat of his heart in his chest.

****
I miss another day of school, just laying in bed, sometimes with Logan, sometimes with my mom.

When Logan rushes to classes my mom comes and sits with me in bed, and we watch movies.

When Logan comes back we hang out and the two of us cuddle. It's calming.

Dad also took another day off of work, he's pacing the corridor or keeps offering us ridiculous amounts of food.

Logan comes back from college and swaps places with my mom.

"Do you guys want Pizza?" My dad asks as Logan's phone pings. He shows me the text and I groan.

Can we check in on Aria? She shouldn't be alone.

"Um... yeah. But actually we'll uh grab it." I tell my dad.

Both my parents look at me in shock.

"I kinda want some fresh air." I tell them, slowly climbing out of bed.

I don't bother changing out of my pyjamas as I head downstairs. Logan grabs some slippers and forces my feet into them.

My dad forces cash into my hand.

Logan orders pizza over the phone whilst we head in to his house.

When we get to Logan's, Aria is sat on the sofa and she looks awful.

"Grace?" She murmurs.

"Oh Aria." I sigh moving to sit beside her.

"You look so awful." I sit down beside her and swing an arm around her.

"I'm so sorry about Mr Fitz. What he did isn't okay." I squeeze her tightly.

"He used me and us. I loved him and he used me." She cries.

Logan goes into the kitchen and comes back out with some hot chocolate.

"You need to drink up." Logan tells her, forcing it into her hands.

"I'm so sorry Aria." I grab her hand.

"I'm sorry about yesterday at Spencer's. We didn't mean to trigger you." She apologises.

"Thank you for apologising." I could lie and say it's fine but it isn't. I'm not okay.

Aria and I hug for a bit before Hannah comes to take over.

"Hey, how are you?" Hannah asks, reaching for my hand.

"I'm... coping. I'll be okay, it's just a bit tricky right now." I tell them with some optimism.

"I'll come and see you soon. We can chat." Hannah tells me and I nod.

Logan grabs the pizza and we head back home. The two of us chill in my room all night.

My parents come in and say goodnight.

They then leave Logan and I alone to sit in silence or to talk about anything that comes to my head.