Vodka Kisses

0118- The Badass Seed

I'm not even listening to them. We're sat on the floor outside the auditorium. I'm totally high I don't even know how I made it through any lessons today. I'm just sat here totally zoned out.

If I can't focus on what they're saying then how am I getting through the school days.

Since I cut things off with Logan I've been high daily. But thing are different now, I've got A on my back and my friends needing me. I'm stuck and I can hardly concentrate.

I'm in this situation where I need to concentrate but I want to feel better at the same time.

What's that drug people use for ADHD? Adderall? Maybe I should get that.

The next day I'm with Emily and Spencer in the courtyard.

"That's awesome, that's the part you really wanted right?" Emily asks.

"Yeah! It's pretty cool." Spencer smiles.

Emily's phone rings but she just ends the call.

"If you guys are all involved maybe I should do props or something." Emily says.

"Grace isn't involved." Spencer points and I nod.

"I am not." I say and ruffle through my bag.

"Why is Paige McCullers calling?" Spencer asks and my head spins in Emily's direction.

"Ew." I roll my eyes.

"Tell her I said go to hell." I say and turn back to my bag.

"It's not like that. We're cool now." Emily says as I pull out my bottle. I take some aspirin and swallow it down with some water.

"Really? What brought you closer, her trying to drown you?" Spencer asks and I scoff.

"She's got a cousin in the military and she's kind of anxious about it. Did you and Toby figure out that braille thing yet, what 214 means?" Emily asks. I know what she's doing but I'll allow it because I'm curious too.

"You haven't given up have you?" Emily asks.

"Definitely not. We're still working on it." Spencer encourages.

My head is spinning. I don't even wanna listen to them talk anymore.

I stand up and they both turn to me.

"I'm gonna bounce." I cringe and walk away.

"Where you going?" Spencer asks.

"Don't know but I'm bored." I say and just continue to walk away.

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I don't know how Emily roped me into doing props with her.

For pretty much the whole session I had my back towards everyone else and was just moving random stuff in to piles.

"Uh. I'm guessing this isn't the varsity booster club. My bad. Sorry." Ian says and this is the only thing that has made me look away from these stupid props.

I watch Ian leave and then Emily pulls me over to where the girls are huddled.

"He's so creepy." Emily says.

"I can't believe you ever kissed him." Aria says.

"We all wanted to kiss him." Spencer says. I sure as shit didn't.

"Never." Hannah says and I nod in agreement with her.

"At that frat party when he was big man on campus? The one that Alison got us into." Spencer refreshes our mind. Still didn't, I was with Logan then.

"Not me." Hannah says.

"Yes you." Emily tells Hannah.

"You should've said something to your sister that night." Emily says suddenly. About what?