K-pop Idol Imagines

Between the lines of fear (Rosé)

The feeling of love can be a fragile thing. Even though your heart screams for it to be filled with the color red, your head at the same time denies this notion and instead asks for a logical reason: Am I deserving of this love? Is this happening for real? How would I know if this won't be like the last time?

These scary thoughts filled Rosé's head as she stared at the hand that was holding hers tightly. She looked up and watched the one who had the torch that lit her heart up in red with a mix of emotions in her eyes.

"Rosé, how's the trip? I thought this place would be perfect for us," Y/N said, her tone sure, but her gaze soft.

Rosé smiled and nodded her head as she replied with a squeeze of their intertwined hands and said, "Yes, I love it here, Y/N. Thank you for planning this."

Y/N sighed in relief, smiling, "I'm glad. I know you've always loved serenity and what's more serene than nature itself?"

She said gesturing to their surroundings; a long avenue covered with bare Gingko trees. It was a beautiful path and more so amid the winter season. Rosé inhaled the cold and crisp air with a mix of earthy scent as she felt a sense of tranquility settling in.

Her eyes never left Y/N as she was being led by her while she talked about her week and how it went at her office, how her new colleague was a bit eccentric, and how she missed Rosé all week and waited for this day.

However, Rosé, despite tuning into all her talk, couldn't help but zone out a bit as she stared deeply into those obsidian eyes of Y/N's. Those eyes were pure of warmth and affection that made Rosé's heart flutter, but the uncertainty in her mind was so loud that even if she wanted, she couldn't escape it.

Somehow, Y/N was able to notice the flicker of emotions in Rosé's eyes and stopped in between their walk. She sighed heavily and stepped close to Rosé. Cupping her cheek with her hand, she asked, "What is it? You're zoning out again. Is something bothering you?"

It was an amazing concept to Rosé how Y/N was able to detect the subtle changes about her. She thought of all those times when Y/N came to her and comforted her without Rosé even uttering a word. She was always surprised and grateful to Y/N for understanding her even when she had no courage to ask.

Rosé looked away into faraway distance as she tried to find coherent words to speak out her emotions. But all that came out was: "It's not... Well, something's bothering me. But..."

Mere words were simply failing her to convey the depths of the sentiment she was feeling.

Y/N noticed her tentativeness, and she pulled her towards a bench nearby and sat her down. She settled close to Rosé and held her hand in hers, caressing the back of her palm with her thumb as she looked at Rosé with tenderness and said, "You can tell me anything, Rosé. Whatever it is... I'll understand."

Y/N's sense of assurity was a big plus for Rosé. It was always Y/N who was the certain one in their relationship. Confidence was one of the things that Rosé envied and was attracted to.

Letting out a shaky breath, Rosé gathered the courage from her deepest depths and said, "I was thinking about, well, us."

"What about it?"

Rosé looked at her and saw that it was not disappointment that Y/N was conveying through her words, rather, it was understanding. An expression that said: tell me and we'll fix it together.

Rosé hesitated, her gaze searching for the right words. "I've been thinking about how happy this relationship makes me. You've brought me so much joy, more than I ever thought I could have. But... there's a part of me that can't help but feel uneasy. It's the fear of losing this—whatever it is that we have. Some thoughts haunt me, whispers telling me I don't deserve your love. It's a little overwhelming. I want to embrace this moment, to cherish it, but the fear that it could all slip away is hard to ignore."