[the avengers ➼ imagines]

tony stark ≫ i want what i can't have

It seems pretty typical falling for someone you can't have, doesn't it? It wasn't supposed to happen, honest. He just got under my skin, he made me feel special, like I was the only person that mattered to him. That was until Pepper came along. Tony instantly fell in love with the idea of having someone do everything he wanted them to, he enjoyed having someone running around after him, waiting on him hand and foot. He loved the idea of power. I guess eventually he also fell in love with Pepper along the way too.

Watching the man I love shower another women with affection breaks my heart into millions of pieces. Watching them share kisses, watching him hold her if she's upset, it's all destroying me a little bit at a time. I don't know how much longer I can take it before I explode.

It's probably not the best idea to be around Tony when I'm completely and utterly infatuated with the man but I can't help it when I'm his best friend. I guess that's why I agreed to come to this stupid party.

I sat by the bar, sipping on my vodka and coke. I was alone, as per usual, everyone else was up dancing. As much as I tried not to, I couldn't help looking over at Tony and Pepper dancing. Her hands were all over him, her fingers tangling up in his hair whilst his hands were settled on her waist. Their bodies were in such close proximity to each other, causing the jealousy to build up inside me like a small fire slowly getting larger and brighter. They began to lean in, their faces getting closer and closer until their lips were pressed together.

I quickly turned away, years threatening to drop onto my cheeks. I couldn't describe what I was feeling, I just really wanted to disappear. I hurriedly downed the rest of my drink, slipped a tip to the bartender and made my way for the door.

"(Y/N)?". A voice called from behind me, a voice that made me go weak and the knees. I quickly turned around, almost bumping into Tony.

"Yes, Tony?". I asked, my stomach filling with butterflies. His deep, chocolate brown eyes were filled with concern. I could stare into them all day, he was so dreamy.

"Where are you going, the party has only just started?". He questioned, his hand resting on my upper arm causing my face to turn red. I lowered my head in an attempt to hide the very noticeable blush that he had caused.

"Oh, uh, I-," What was I supposed to so say? 'Oh hey Tony, I'm completely in love with you and watching you and Pepper together is killing me inside so I'm going home to drown in my own sadness' how about no. "I have to go feed my dog, forgot to leave her food out."

"(Y/N), your dog died 11 years ago and as far as I'm concerned you haven't got a new one." He chuckled, his hand slowly running up and down my arm causing goosebumps.

"Oh yeah, so she did, I uh forgot?" I spoke, it sounded like a question more than an answer. I hope he didn't interrogate me anymore, I think I would eventually just burst.

"Are you sure you're okay, (Y/N)?" he asked, his voice laced with concern. I felt bad lying to him but it's better than him hearing the truth.

"Yeah, I'm fine, I just want to go home. Bye, Tony." I replied, turning around and walking away.

I got into the elevator, repeatedly pressing the down button so that no one else could get in. When the doors finally closed I backed up against the furthest away wall and slowly slid down it. The tears started streaming from my eyes. Why can't he just see that I'm completely in love with him. Why can't I just have one good thing in my life. I don't want to be stuck on the side lines forever. I guess we don't always get what we want.
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Sorry if there are any mistakes, I didn't proof read, I'll edit it when I can. I hope the few of you that do read these, actually enjoy them!

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