[the avengers ➼ imagines]

natasha romanoff ≫ im so sorry

Word Count: 702
Warning: like one swear word
Note: this wasn't requested but idk I felt like writing it, hope you like it

You stirred in your sleep slightly as you felt the bed rise slightly, as sign that someone was getting out of it. That certain someone being Natasha.

"Nat what are you doing?" Your grumbled slightly, your voice hoarse from last nights events. Natasha jumped slightly, obviously not realising that you were awake.

She was picking her clothes up off the floor - the ones that you had tore from her last night - you smirked to yourself slightly. You turned your head slightly to check the time on your bedside clock. It was 5.00am.

"Nat what the hell, it's 5 in the fucking morning?" You whispered as loudly as you could, making sure you wouldn't wake anyone in the surrounding rooms.

"I need to leave before anyone else wakes. Steve goes running at 5.30." She spoke as she pulled her t-shirt over her head.

"Why would you need to leave before anyone else wakes?" You sat there for a second, confused, before realisation washed over you.

"You don't want people knowing about us - about this?" You gestured between the both of you vaguely.

Natasha looked guilty as you spoke, seeing the obvious hurt on your face pained her more than she'd like to admit.

"It's not that it's jus-" you cut her off before she could give you any explanation.

"No. It's fine, I understand. You can go now." You spat harshly, though your voice was still filled with hurt.

"(Y/N) I'm s-"

"Leave. Natasha." Your voice was harsher now, more persistent. You turned over to face the other way, pulling the blankets over your entire body.

You stayed silent for a few moments, hoping - praying, that Natasha would change her mind and cuddle with you but your hopes were crushed as you heard the sound of the door opening and closing silently.

You cried silently to yourself. Typical that you would fall for someone who was embarrassed of people knowing about you. Eventually you fell asleep with a heavy heart.
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"(Y/N), you okay?" You were pulled from your thoughts by Tony. You were sitting at the island in the kitchen, slowly eating a bowl of cereal.

"Yeah." You mumbled. Pushing the coco pops around the bowl, not really having much of an appetite.

Your head shot up at the sound of another person entering the room. It was Natasha. Of course it was.

You quickly stood up from the table. You put your dish by the sink and headed for the exit.

"(Y/N)." Natasha spoke up, gently grabbing your arm.

"Leave me alone." You coldly ordered, pulling your arm from her grip. You quickly made your way out the room.

"What was that about?" You could hear Tony ask Natasha.

"Nothing." She replied. Of course she would say that. Can't having anyone know about you.

Later that night you were lying in your bed, flicking through TV channels, nothing was really taking your fancy. You stopped at the sound of someone knocking at your bedroom door. You ignored it.

You continued flicking through the channels. A second later the person knocked again.

"(Y/N), I know you're in there. Open up." Natasha's voice sounded from the other side of the door. Great.

"Go away Natasha." You shouted, your voice breaking.

Before you could even finish your sentence the door had opened and the red head walked into the room.

"That wasn't an invitation to come in." You shouted.

"I don't care." She spoke, making her way over to your bed. She began to climb on top of you, straddling your waist.

"What are you doing?" You asked, confused.

"I'm so sorry (Y/N). I'm not embarrassed to be with you, I know that's what you think is going on. I was just scared, if people knew you were my girlfriend, then my enemies could find out and that would put you in danger. I couldn't live with myself if something happened to you." She spoke.

You smiled slightly, "I'd rather risk that happening than having to live with this as a secret." You admitted. 

She chuckled slightly, "Of course you would." She leaned down to kiss your lips softly. "I love you (Y/N)."

"I love you too, Nat."