[the avengers ➼ imagines]

steve rogers ≫ regret

word count: 934
requested by: -captainmarvel
pairing: steve x jas/jasmine
warnings: bit of angst lol

"We can't do this anymore. I'm getting married in a week." You spoke up, breaking the silence that had fallen over the room. The early morning light seeped through the curtains. The birds outside the chirped a sweet melody.

Steve rolled over, his familiar baby blue eyes locking with your own. He frowned slightly, "I don't know why you're marrying him."

"You know why Steve, I've gotten in too deep. I can't back out now, my family and friends will disown me." You muttered, your voices hushed as to not wake anyone else in the building. If they knew what you were doing it would be game over.

Steve sighed, his large arms wrapping around your smaller frame, pulling you into his side. "You have to do what makes you happy Jas. Don't do something that doesn't make you happy for the sake of others, you'll regret it." Steve voice before drifting off to sleep.

Your eyes were trained on the red numbers on the alarm clock that sat on Steve's bedside table.

4.56am.

You told Will you'd be home by eleven at the latest. You'd said you were going out for drinks wth your girlfriends which was true, you just happened to stumble upon Steve when you were walking home. One thing led to another and well...

You knew what you were doing was wrong. You felt horrible cheating, it made you feel filthy but there was something so addictive about Steve. He was like a drug the you couldn't stop taking. His lips were addictive, his body was addictive, his personality was addictive. You couldn't get enough of him.

There was a point where you loved Will too, not like you love Steve but in another way. He was sweet but nothing more. It wasn't a very serious relationship, you'd only been dating a year before he proposed. Come to think of it now, you weren't really sure why you said yes, you were going to call it off but you couldn't bring yourself to do it. Your entire family would turn against you, your mother and father wouldn't look at you the same again.

You were awakened from your trance by your phone beeping, signalling that you had received a text. You reached out to the bedside cabinet, grabbing it. The bright light blinding your eyes. The text on the screen made your stomach drop with guilt.

Where are you? I woke up and you weren't home. If you just stayed with one of the girls please let me know. I'll come pick you up in the morning.

Love, Will x

The guilt over took your body. You shrink back into Steve, trying to cower away from your problems. You knew if you didn't do something soon you'd live a life of regret.

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"Jasmine, honey, you look beautiful." Your mother complimented, wiping tears away with her tissue. She fixed the trail of your long, Ivory gown.

You stared at your reflection, your eyes empty of any sort of emotion. You were about to make one of the worst decisions of your life and it was nobody's fault but your own. If only you had just spoke up before it went too far.

The door to the room opened, Natasha, Wanda and Pepper pushing through it. They squealed when they caught sight of you, dressed to perfection. You forced a small smile, trying to look slightly happy.

"Jasmine, you look gorgeous. I can't believe you're getting married!" Natasha rejoiced, her hand reaching out to push back a strand of hair from your face.

"Thanks." You mumbled, your eyes falling back to your figure in the mirror. Your eyes were filled with tears though nobody questioned it, most likely assuming they were tears of happiness.

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The door boomed open, all the guests began to rise from their seats, turning their heads to try catch sight of you. You felt like disappearing on the spot.

Your bridesmaids began to move, you and your father slowly following behind. The flower girl sprinkled small rose petals along the church aisle.
You felt like you were choking, you couldn't breath but all you could do was smile.

Will looked at you, a wide grin on his face which only broke your heart further. You were such a horrible person, you couldn't believe you had agreed to this.

You reached him eventually, he placed a small kiss on your lips. The priest smiled at you both before beginning the ceremony.

You zoned in and out, not really paying attention to what the priest was muttering on about. Will turned to you every so often, smiling. You returned the gesture, though it just added to your ever growing amount of guilt.

"Jasmine?" You looked up at Will who looked down at you worriedly. "Are you okay?"

You turned around to look at the crowd, your eyes locking with the one person you hoped you wouldn't see.

Steve stared at you, tears in his eyes, it was evident his heart was breaking having to watch this. He attempted to smile at you, a tear escaping his eye.

You turned back to Will, you couldn't let this man live his life thinking that you loved him. The love you felt for him has long since disappeared. He looked down at you, fear in his eyes. But you also couldn't let yourself live a life, convincing yourself that you loved one man when you knew your love lay in the arms of another.

Your voice cracked as you spoke up, uttering those four words that would change everything,

"I can't marry you."

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should I do part two?????

Also I'm such a bad person like I don't think I've uploaded anything in like over a month, sorry about that. I'm just always really busy, stressed or napping lmao

I really quite liked this idea that I came up with so I'd be happy to write a part two for it if anyone wanted it!