[the avengers ➼ imagines]

steve rogers ≫ regret pt. 2

word count: 1184
requested by: -captainmarvel / part two to the request
pairing: steve x jas/jasmine
warnings: none

You watched as Will's eyes widened in shock, almost as if he couldn't comprehend what you had said.

"Yo-you what?" He asked, his voice filled with horror. He pulled his hand that had been tightly clasping your own away, shaking you off like you were some sort of contagious disease.

"I can't marry you, Will." You repeated, your voice stronger this time as you finally spoke the words that had been on your mind for months. "It's not right."

"What do you mean it's not right? We love each other!" His tone became more furious, his voice becoming louder with each word he spoke.

"I did love you, Will, I really did. In a way I still do, just not the way you want me to. I'm sorry Will, I can't let myself live a lie, it wouldn't be fair on either of us. I didn't want to have to keep pretending. I'm sorry but I cannot live the life that you dream of. I don't want to settle down straight away. I don't want to move into some suburban little estate with three little kids, two dogs and a nanny at this age. I'm not ready for it. I don't want to wake up one morning at 40 and realise I've wasted my life on a marriage that was a lie. I'm really sorry Will but it's the truth and there is no other way to put it." You trailed off, gasps among the crowd could be heard as you finished your mini speech.

Will stared at you for a few moments, his face void of any sort of emotion. He spoke up again, "was there someone else?" He asked, gulping.

You were silent for a few moments, not sure what to say. Do you tell a lie or do you continue on your path to the truth? Deciding that you didn't want to leave any lies between you, you nodded, "yes."

"Who?" He asked again, his curiosity getting the better of him.

Your eyes glanced sideways, catch site of Steve. He stared at the altercation happening in front of him in shock, just like every other guest in the small church. You gulped slightly as his eyes locked with your own, you couldn't tell how he felt about what you were doing.

Will's eyes followed your stare, they landed on Steve. His face fell slightly. He knew you and Steve were friends, but he never expected this.

"Really? Steve?" He attempted to shout, his voice cracking. He began to back away from you, a large distance forming between the two of you.

"I'm sorry, I really am. I should have spoke up earlier, told you that I wasn't happy and maybe this could have all been prevented. This is all my fault, I understand if you never want to see me again - hell, even I wouldn't want to see me again." You laughed at your own words slightly, a choked cry escaping your mouth.

"Maybe you should just go." Will ordered, his voice almost a whisper. He turned away from you, refusing to look at you.

You nodded slightly, even though he couldn't see you. You turned away from the alter, beginning to make your way back down the aisle. The guests stared at you, most in disgust, but some almost in sympathy.

As you neared the end of the aisle, you began to jog as fast as your long dress would allow it. You ran straight out of the building, the wedding photographer who had been set up outside, waiting for you and Will to leave looked at you in shock.

You ran to the car that had dropped you off, pushing yourself into the back seat, the driver turned to you, confused.

"Please, just drive!" You cried, sinking down into the seat. You knew what you did was right, you couldn't let it go any further but that didn't stop the enormous amount of guilt and sadness that you felt.

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A knock sounded on your front door which pulled you from your trance. You were sat on the sofa of your apartment, you hadn't moved since you got home at least 20 minutes ago.

"Go away." You croaked, your voice painful. You knew it would most likely your mother or father coming to scold you for what you did.

"Jasmine, it's me!" Steve's voice called from the other side of the door.

You quickly jumped from where you were sitting, running to your front door. You fumbled as you tried to unlock it as quick as you did.

Almost as soon as it was unlocked, Steve had barged through. He caught site of your distraught self, his arms instantly engulfing you in the warmest bear hug. You cried into his chest for a few minutes, neither of you speaking.

"It's okay, Jas. I know it was hard but what you did was right." Steve's comforting voice broke the silence in the room.

"I feel horrible. I'm such a terrible person." You whimpered, wiping away the fallen tears that had escaped down your cheeks.

"Listen, Jas. What we did was wrong, I'll admit to that but you marrying him and pretending to love him would have been worse. I know that just now you'll probably feel like the most terrible person on the planet, but trust me, eventually you'll see what you did was right." Steve consoled, his large arms gently running up and down your back.

"I'm so sorry to have involved you in this Steve." You apologised, pulling away to look up at him. His eyes were filled with tears as he looked down at you in sadness.

"Don't apologise, Jas. I love you no matter what. I'll always stand my you." He promised, his hand reaching out to tuck the fallen hair behind you ear. He gestured towards your wedding dress, "But right now I think we need to get you out of this."

You stared down at the dress in sadness, "I always dreamt of the day I'd get married, I'd wear a fancy gown like this and walk down the aisle towards the man that I loved. I never expected it to go like this." You spoke, your voice hoarse.

"Don't worry, Jas. Things happen for a reason, this was just one of those things." Steve reassured.

You glanced up at Steve, your eyes meeting. He stared down at you lovingly but his eyes also held concern. You slowly up towards his face, pressing a gentle but loving kiss on his lips.

"I love you." You mumbled against his lips. His large hands moved up to your jaw, gently caressing it, scared that if he wasn't gentle you would break.

"I love you too, Jasmine. I love you so much." He whispered back before pulling you into another tight hug.

You knew that after today life would be tough and that some people would completely turn against you. You knew that things would get harder from now on but you also knew that with Steve by your side you could conquer anything.

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two updates within two days I must be sick lmao

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