Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Nap Time

Once Tyrone and I are finished eating our lunch, he takes me to the room we frequently visit.

"I know it wouldn't be the first time we hung out in here during lunch, but I figured it's a nice, quiet, secluded space. No one really comes in here other than during the after school clubs and stuff. If you want to talk, we can talk. If you want to just be, that's fine too. Whatever you need to help you feel a little better or more prepared to handle the day."

I smile at Tyrone gratefully, touched by how thoughtful he can be.

I sit down and lean against the wall, feeling drained.

"I just wish the world could slow down for a second and give me a chance to catch up..." I say.

"I feel that deeply in my soul." Tyrone replies, seating himself beside me.

"Do you think I really have a brother? Like could it actually be true?" I ask, almost more to myself.

"I'm not sure, but it sounds like it. Aren't you going to ask your mom?" Tyrone asks.

I shrug.

"I don't know. I probably should but I'm curious if she's going to tell me on her own. I asked her not to keep any more secrets from me, but at this point I'm not even sure if I want the truth. Or if she'll even tell me. For the first time in my life, I'm doubting her just a little. I mean, I still trust her, just not as blindly as before." I elaborate.

"That makes sense. I get it." Tyrone places a comforting arm around me, and for a moment I forget everything else, focusing on his touch.

It makes me feel so hopeful whenever stuff like this happens. It makes me feel like there is perhaps a chance for me, even if he's just trying to help me feel better.

But then, he pulls me closer so I'm leaning against him, my head resting on his shoulder.

It makes me feel safe and comfortable, and a wave of drowsiness washes over me.

"I'm sorry about earlier, Ty. You seemed to be in a good mood today... I didn't mean to make you feel bad about yourself for not telling me sooner." I say randomly.

"Khai would you quit apologizing? I'm the one at fault here." Tyrone replies, rubbing my shoulder.

I can't find words at first, perhaps a little too tired.

When I do talk, it's hardly related.

"I've just been all over the place today. But it made me happy that you seemed happy today."

"Yeah... I slept pretty good... maybe a little too much." Tyrone chuckles softly. "Sorry, not trying to flaunt that." He adds quickly. "It's just been a while since I slept like that."

"That's good. Do you feel a little more stable now or have your meds not really kicked in yet?" I ask.

"I don't think they're quite doing everything they could be doing just yet but yes, I do feel a little more stable. Still kinda wanted to punch Noah, Mervin and Geoffrey earlier, though. But I feel more in control which makes me relieved. That used to scare me so badly."

"That's good. That you feel you have more control, I mean. I'm happy for you." I say.

Tyrone squeezes my shoulder gently, then rests his head on top of mine.

"Maybe you can catch a nap quickly, Khai." Tyrone suggests. "You must be so tired. You're slurring your words and everything."

"Yeah.. I do feel quite sleepy."

"Hopefully I suffice as a pillow." Tyrone says with a soft laugh.

"Absolutely." I reply, already closing my eyes.