Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Feelings

"Oh." Khai sighs with relief, and even I feel relieved that I'm not keeping that from him anymore. That'd probably be selfish of me.

Aimee and Scarlette both seem very curious by who Khai likes, but they refrain from asking any questions.

Khai's expression also holds a little curiousity, and it seems as though he's considering something.

"That's a very hard thing to do. He's a good person." Aimee says.

"Maybe. Or maybe he just gives up easily." Scarlette says. I shake my head at her, not wanting her to make Khai feels worse.

She covers her mouth quickly.

"Though I doubt it. He is very intelligent and I see him trying hard in class." She adds.

Khai nods.

"That is true."

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On the way home from school, Khai still seems to be somewhat deep in thought.

I nudge his arm, trying to bring his attention back.

He glances at me curiously, as if expecting me to say something.

When I don't, he just stares down at the floor again.

But soon, he asks me,

"How long have you known?"

"Just yesterday. I told him you had a crush on someone else, should I not have done that?" I ask, maybe overthinking it too much.

"No, it's fine. I mean... I kinda like him, like I'm attracted to him but I don't know him near as well as I know you."

"I know, but that comes over time. It doesn't mean you can't." I say, even though the thought alone just about breaks me inside.

"True..."

"Besides, if you were to go with him, it might help you get over your crush on me." I say, trying to hide all emotion in my voice.

But maybe Zevon is better for him than I will ever be, and I just want what's best for Khai.

"I know... but I can't just stop liking you, Tyrone. Like... I don't even think you understand... if I do have a crush on Zevon, it's like nothing compared to the feelings I have for you and even if it'll never be, I can't just stop that or turn it off."

I try not sigh with relief.

"Why are you smiling?" Khai asks, confused.

I quickly erase it when I notice it.

"No reason." I say. "And Khai, the point of getting over someone is having someone else to focus on." I clarify. "Like what I mean is that in order to help yourself to stop liking me, you'd need to find some way to distract yourself and eventually you'd manage."

"I don't want to." Khai mumbles. "Because for that to happen I'd have to stop hanging out with you." Khai frowns. "Why do I have to stop liking you?" He asks.

"You don't. You do whatever makes you happiest."

"Okay... are you sure it doesn't bother you, though?"

"Why do you ask?"

"Well... maybe you were smiling at the thought of being free from me having a crush on you... and you seem to be trying to make that happen." He explains himself.

Clearly, I'm over-doing it. I'm trying to keep him oblivious to the fact I have a crush on him, too, but at the same time, I don't want him to think what he's thinking now.