Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Hard.

I stare ahead when I spot him hastily enter the school building. He seems visibly upset, and he just rushes past everyone, not making eye contact. 

I wish I could explain more to Zevon about him and inform him that Tyrone's going through major hormonal imbalances right now, but Tyrone never said I could share that information with anyone and I take confidentiality very seriously. 

I'd never want to say something about him that he wanted to remain a secret. 

Besides, Zevon will probably just find something else to say that'll even make me doubt. He's oddly persuasive.

"I... should go check on him." I tell Zevon.

"It's okay, I'll come with." He replies.

Oh, what do I do? I hate turning people down, but I think it's better if just I go. 

I sigh.

"What's wrong?" Zevon asks.

"Well... he doesn't really know you yet and he usually... well, he likes to be alone sometimes... no, I mean... it's just... I think I should go by myself." I tell him as gently as I can manage.

I suddenly spot Scarlette and Aimee and plan a quick way to get by myself again.

"Hey Scarlette, hey Aimee, this is Zevon! He's new here, have you met him yet? You should hang out with hime while I go see if Tyrone's okay. Thanks!" I say, then quickly leave to find Tyrone. 

I feel kind of mean for just abandoning them like that but Tyrone is really important to me and I told him I'd always be there for him and I intend to stick to my word. 

He's so afraid I'll leave him one day and I don't want him to be right.

I imagined that Tyrone would be heading for the little room we always hang out in, but I find him in the halls by his locker, fumbling with his lock combination.

I make my way through the sea of people between us and eventually, I stop beside him.

He's muttering curse words under his breath, and his hands are all shaky, probably why he's not succeeding at getting into his locker.

"Tyrone..." I place and hand on his shoulder and he looks up at me very quickly, somewhat taken aback. "Breathe." I tell him quietly and calmly, mimicking some sort of zen movement.

"I'm sorry." Tyrone apologizes. He takes a deep breath and closes his eyes for a few seconds.

"Good Tyrone." I say, then pat his head. He opens and eye and chuckles softly.

It's not much, but it's better then absolutely no sign of happiness whatsoever.

"Why don't you ever tell me what's wrong?" I ask randomly.

Tyrone studies me for a few seconds, then shrugs.

"I mean, you kind of know. But for the rest... I don't know."

He seems uncomfortable.

I think I understand where Zevon's coming from. 

For someone who doesn't know Tyrone, I get that it's easy to think he's lying or making stuff up.

But I know Tyrone better, and I know he doesn't want to talk about all of that and it's okay. He shouldn't have to be forced to explain everything.

"It's okay, Ty. You're not obligated to but I just... I want to help you and it just... sucks, sometimes to be left in the dark or be left guessing. But that doesn't mean.... never mind, I just said that."

"I know. And thanks for understanding, I just... I don't like talking about my feelings. Makes it harder to ignore them."

"Tyrone... can I tell you something?" I ask.