Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Chapter 101

***Tyrone's POV***

I listen to Khai's kind words carefully, feeling my stress alleviate. He makes me feel so much better and in that moment, I realize he's always been with me. He hasn't gone anywhere and he's someone I can rely on. The only thing that makes me feel better.

He's like the calm in my storm.

"Thank you for still being here despite all my bullshit. At least I have you yet."

Khai smiles at me, and I think about how much he's helped me in the short time I've known him.

He's been patient and accepting of me through my mood swings and shitty behaviour when we'd first met, and he's about the only person who actually believed in  me, even when I couldn't believe in myself. He made me a better person and always does everything in his power to help me out wherever he can, physically or emotionally.

He can comfort me like no one else.

"Can I tell you something?" I pause momentarily. "The last time I was like this, when you held me in that alley, that was the safest I've ever felt in my life."

I gaze into his eyes searchingly. There's nothing in the world I want more than him right now.

"I need you, Khai."

After I say this, I realize that if I need him so badly, maybe I should stop avoiding my feelings for him and accept the fact that I need him around for the rest of my life and if he's around, my feelings will be, too.

Fuck it.

I think it's about time I kissed him.

My gaze flicks a little lower to his lips and I lean forward slightly, hoping he'll read the visual cue.

When he freezes up momentarily, I gently place my hand on his face.

I can read the desire in his eyes, but there's also hesitation.

"Ty..." He says before he softly takes hold of my wrist. "You know I really like and have wanted this forever but I don't think you're in the right headspace right now and... I just don't want you to do anything you might regret later."

I stare at him deeply, wondering if I should correct him and let him know that I really do have feelings for him and it's been this way for a long time already.

But I realize I should probably wait just a little longer. Once I get my refill on my meds, my moods should stabilize a bit. That way, Khai won't have to feel bad about it or worry he's taking advantage. He'll at least believe me a little better, and hopefully realize my feelings are genuine.

Besides, it would be nice if our first kiss was under different circumstances. The truth is, I have been through a lot and there has been a lot of emotional turmoil on my end.

So I just nod, dropping my hand from his face.

"Thank you for being so thoughtful, Khai." I say. "I really appreciate it. This is why I don't feel uncomfortable around you."

He smiles a small smile back at me.

"I... I knew you were stressed out and struggling but I didn't realize just how much you were going through." He says sadly.

"And that's not even everything. But I don't want to talk about the other stuff." I say quickly. 

He seems so worried about me. I can't bring myself to tell him about my dad and uncle or what they did.

"That's okay."

I quietly sigh with relief. While I know he doesn't ever want to overstep boundaries, I also know it's really hard for him not to because he's so curious.