Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Vision Pt. 2

(Essentially, this is the last chapter but from Tyrone's POV)

***Tyrone's POV***

My mind is anywhere but the present. I'm feeling so many emotions right now, mostly anxiety, agitation, sadness, and guilt. The anxiety is random, but mostly concerning my mom, I think. I'll blame Zevon for the agitation. The sadness... I'm not sure where it's coming from, but it's probably just because of my medication withdrawal. I guess all my moods are, really. Lastly, the guilt. It's from not telling Khai the whole truth and leaving him in the dark. 

I feel like there's nothing he keeps from me and I keep almost everything from him. He doesn't know my mom is pregnant, he doesn't know about my uncle, he only knows a half-truth about my dad, and he doesn't know why I actually got to school late. 

I lie to him a lot, more than I want to and I hate it. I don't like it but I'm just so lost and torn, and half the time I have no idea what to say or how to say it. 

I don't want Khai to worry, but mostly, it's because I'm afraid he'll try to get help for me. 

No, I know he'll do that. 

While help is idealistic and sounds amazing, it's not usually attainable. Stuff never ends up turning out and I'd hate to repeat what happened last time.

I know better than to try to get help now. It only ends up hurting myself and the people I'm close to because Boris - and likely my uncle too - planned for that exact scenario to happen and prepared for it. 

They're the ones with the power. They're in control, and I'm just a nothing trying to protect his mom.

"Ty?"

I suddenly realize Khai has been talking to me. Slightly disoriented, I turn my head to look at him, becoming curious.

"Do you think it's great to have Zevon as a friend?" He asks, staring up at me expectantly.

I'm about to tell him what I really think and break out of this whole 'lying' cycle, but there's so much hope in his eyes.

He just wants everyone to be friends and I know he's innocent and that he means well. He's just so... pure. 

And I'm just so sick of letting people down.

I don't want to hurt his feelings. I want him to be able to hang around Zevon without worrying that it upsets me, even if that's how it really is.

"Yeah, sure." I reply, and when his face holds some doubt, I manage a smile for him.

Khai smiles back, his cheeks slightly flushed. I can tell he's thinking about our interaction deeply.

But then, he turns back to Zevon, and I look outside again. Once I get lost in thought, I'm not really taking in anything of what I'm seeing.

But when Khai suddenly collapses, nothing could've brought me back to reality faster. I hop off the window ledge and I'm by his side in seconds.

At first, I thought maybe he'd just fallen like he tends to do, but when I find him unresponsive, I realize he must've passed out or something.

"Khai." I shake his shoulder, trying to wake him up. Zevon, Scarlette, and Aimee are next to me in seconds. They worriedly mutter to each other but I'm too alarmed to really hear any distinct words.

My brain feels scattered suddenly and I'm grappling for any sense of calm right now. 

Usually I'm good in emergencies, but with everything going on, I just feel like I can't function properly.