Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

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Warning: Read at your own discretion because this chapter may just make you very mad and upset. At me. I apologize in advance and please don't hurt me.

Also, strap in. This chapter is a long one.

"Yeah. I did."

"I thought so. Wish I figured that out sooner." Tyrone sighs with what I believe to be disappointment. "I needed them. I really... I just... like I told you, I never want to get that close to killing someone again. And apparently I need medication to do that. Please don't make me turn out like you."

"You never will be. You're not capable of it. But I swear on my life I won't touch your meds from now on."

"Oh, cause you're scared I'm gonna try to kill you again?"

"No...but with what you just told me I think you should've."

Tyrone's expression turns to surprise. He tries to process for a moment, but after he just looks sad again.

"Why do you do this to me? You give me so much hope you're going to change but then you fall back and the cycle starts all over again... in a couple days or a couple weeks from now you'll hit me again just for breathing wrong and then you'll feel sad and apologize and pretend some more that you care and... it's just never ending and exhausting and I don't trust you."

I nod.

"I've never given you reason to."

"Stop."

"I- sorry."

"I don't trust you but I can't help but fucking believe you every time, no matter how many times it happens so please... just stop."

Tyrone gets to his feet, aggressively wiping the tears from his eyes before heading towards the stairs.

He pauses, then sighs.

"Thanks for at least getting rid of him this time." He says before disappearing.

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***Tyrone's POV***

I curl up on my mattress, trying to figure out if my dad meant what he said.

Probably not, but Khai has managed to find a way to bring my hope back.

And so, I'm back to believing even though I should know better by now.

Then again, my dad has never chased my uncle away before...

I sigh.

I'm so exhausted but I don't know if I dare let myself fall asleep. It might bring me right back there.

"Tyrone..."

I swing around, alarmed to hear my dad's voice.

"Sorry, are you going to sleep? You just got home from school, it's still light outside... "

"Why are you here?" I ask.

"I was just wondering if you wanted a ride to the drug mart. Perhaps you could get your prescription refilled."

"Why are you doing this?"

"You said you didn't want to turn out like me and I want you to feel like that's possible."

"Well... are you drunk? You were drinking this morning already while making breakfast."

"There was something I was trying to process-"