Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Chapter 114

***Khai's POV***

I still struggle to get to sleep. I have too many mixed emotions and too many things to process. Half excited for the winter dance, half trying to figure out everything my mom just told me.

If she never got divorced with Jatix because she wanted to be out of there as soon as possible... well, it only just makes sense. But if things are somewhat repaired between them now... then why don't they get divorced now? 

And then maybe my mom can marry Rassler!

I sit up rapidly, getting a little too excited.

I really need to get myself to calm down a little.

I check my phone again, only to discover that I only have about three hours before I need to get up again to get ready for school.

A little frustrated suddenly, I sigh and let myself fall over backwards onto my bed again.

If I'm constantly falling, why is it so hard to fall asleep?'

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I don't want to go to school today. Everything is spinning. My eyes hurt and they feel crusty. I can feel I only got like two hours of sleep.

I get out of my bed -an interesting decision when I'm already dizzy, taking my balance issues into consideration- and the result is inevitable.

"Ow..." I mumble as I lay face down on my carpet.

Maybe I'll grow into a garden from how much I face-plant.

I pause to consider my thought.

If it wasn't already clear that I'm half awake, it is now.

I just lay on the floor for a moment, defeated.

What a lovely start to my day.

Wait... I get to see Tyrone today... what if he mentions something about how he feels? 

If he feels it...

Which I think he does, but I can't be sure until he actually mentions something.

But maybe today will be that day?

I get up from the floor at an astonishing speed for someone as feeble as me.

I sigh.

Knowing Tyrone, he'll probably just act like he never asked me... and then before it happens he'll be super close to me and act like he wants a relationship, and then after the dance, he'll pretend we're just friends... perhaps it'll be a never ending cycle.

My dad might be right; maybe he isn't ready yet.

But maybe he never will be.

"Go away, sad Khai." I say out loud.

There's no reason to be thinking so dismal. He's probably just trying to figure his sexuality out. Or maybe he struggles with socialization. He's never been so close to someone before, so maybe he doesn't know how to act.

To be fair, I don't know that much about friendships either. Maybe I'm just reading him wrong because I like him and want him to like me in that same way.

I guess sad Khai doesn't want to go away.

It's probably just because I'm a little sleep deprived today.

I carefully head downstairs, where I find that neither of my parents are awake yet.

I pout, sad that I have to be alone.