SEEING YOU THIS WAY,
IS WORSE THEN A HUNDRED BROKEN HEARTS,
AND A THOUSANDS SHATTERED DREAMS
I was laid in bed now with the darkness falling around me.
I know why she had done it. Why Dr Peterson had provoked and mistrusted me. She wanted a reaction. She wanted to see how far it took for me to confront my emotions and it had been to my limits.
She apologised for her tactics afterwards while I sat warily looking at her through red rimmed eyes. She handed me a glass of cool water and let the time run over our two hour schedule giving me chance to process what had just happened.
I pulled my pillow closer to me now trying to stop my unnecessary shaking.
Since yesterday I had been in a mess, a downward spiral. Dr Peterson's words rushing back to me.
"Did you sleep with him because you were too scared to say no?"
This question plagued me, circling my mind.
I was so far under the influence that night I didn't know what was going on but a flash back kept returning to haunt me.
My body laid on the bed with Benson towering over me, a smug look on his face. He was pulling eagerly at my clothes. I felt frightened. My heart screaming at me to stop him. A sick gut retching fear paralyzing me. I laid there closing my eyes thinking of Matt knowing it had gone too far to turn back. I was falling further under the intoxication of alcohol until I couldn't feel anything anymore, my body and mind on the verge of passing out and then the memory fades into darkness.
Silent tears roll along my cheeks as I huddled into myself needing comfort.
Why had I allowed this to happen? Why didn't I stop him? Why had it taken a barrel full of alcohol to unleash my pain? Why didn't I leave the pub and go straight home? Why did I push Matt away? Why didn't I tell him I wanted him to quit his job when I had the chance? And why, oh why did that person that night have to be Benson?
The worse of it all was knowing how I had let Benson get away with it. Here I was broken hearted, battered and torn apart and he was still out there doing as he pleased, still sharing his bed with Aimee.
I had to do something!!! But I felt so hopeless.
What if no one believed me? What if Aimee chose to believe him over me?
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It was a little after two in the morning when my phone rang. I shot up in bed. I had only just reluctantly closed my eyes.
Matt's number flashed before me, the sound of the ringtone like a siren in my ears. Blood surged through my veins, my heart accelerating.
He must be drunk to ring me at this time.
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Lightning Bolt
RomanceThea thought she had it all when she found true love with Matt Taylor. After all, she was a believer and a dreamer of love so it's only fair that her dreams come true. Once pregnant, she then lost the baby and everything was no longer the same; Matt...