YG University - A New Generation

Chapter 28: Rainy Rainy

Daesung sat alone in the university restoraunt. Several students approached him asking for photos which was annoying him.

I just want to have breakfast and it's not like I'm going anywhere... I have to stay at YGU for at least a year. Then... BigBang will disband

-The thought of that saddened him. Even though he barely spoke to any of the members, he still had faith that they'll somehow make it through

I don't know what I'm supposed to do once we disband. Things will change. My whole life will change. I still want to do music, but as a solo artist, I'm only realy successful in Japan, but I'd like to be more successful.

Daesung scrolled through his photo library until one photo caught his eye

Minzy...

He sighed as he looked at a photo of him and Minzy from their vacation 4 years ago.

How I miss you... I wish things weren't the way the were. I wish I could still love you.

Then, he heard someone behind him

"Mr. Kang... I need to ask--"

If she sees this photo of me and Minzy, she'll spread it around. It will make thins even more awkward between me and Minzy.

"Not now." -Daesung said as he quickly placed the phone on his ear, pretending that he was talking to someone and hid the screen of the phone from Soohyun

He walked out of the restoraunt, still pretending that he was talking to someone. Once he was outside, he took a deep breath as he looked around the campus

When YG told us that we had to return to this place, I wanted to shout at him. I was pissed. This whole place reminds me of her and I even have to live in the same building as her. It's killing me.

Daesung wanted to enter the Chaos Building, but then saw Dara talking to Minzy so he quickly hid behind a tree as he listened to their conversation

"So, you really like him?" -Dara asked and Daesung's heartbeat quickened

"I don't know..." -Minzy said with a giggle that brought a smile on Daesung's face

"When I first met him, I swear it was love at first sight. He was the first guy that I really had feelings for." -Minzy said and Daesung's smile faded

I thought I was the first guy that she really cared for. Or is it that Jinwoo guy...

"What about Jinwoo? I saw you two hanging out lately." -Dara said

"Jin and I are just friends." -Minzy said

So it's some other guy?!

"I'm glad you and I talked, Dara. I missed this." -Minzy said

"I miss how things were 2 years ago..." -Dara said and a silence occured. The two girls walked inside the Chaos Building and Daesung decided to take a walk.

I hate this. I hate the fact that I still care for her. It's been 3 years. Three. Fucking. Years... yet, I can't move on.

This is selfish, but I was kinda happy over the years since she wasn't seeing anyone. I did date a actress for a couple months, but it never felt real. 

Daesung was still in his thoughts, when his eyes caught Seungri smiling and talking to some students

He's doing such a good job as a mentor. He's being to kind to everyone. Out of nine of us, he's the only one who seems happy. The rest of us are all going through our own hell. We did even when we were students, but back then, we could talk to each other about it. Now we don't even greet each other.

Daesung went to café which was only for the professors and staff. He sat down and ordered coffee as he took out his notebook in which his schedule and a few songs were written. He went through the songs and his eyes caught an unfinished song called "Rainy, Rainy" that he wrote when he broke up with Minzy

If love continues
Until you accept that it has ended
I am still left behind in my memories
I still felt your presence,
Not realizing that I'm the only one
Whose feelings hadn't changed
When we crossed paths.

Beyond the rain drops that tap on the window
The place we used to go together
Brings tears to my eyes
As they blur and disappear
The tears fall warmly

Oh rainy rainy

-He silently read the lyrics

I remember the day we broke up... It was only weeks after 2NE1 debuted and we were both so busy. When we did talk, we just yelled at each other. We stopped caring for one another and it was obvious that we wouldn't last. Back then, I wanted us to to break up, but when she finally said those words... when I knew it was really over, I was numb. I didn't know how to react.

He added another verse:

I can't accept the loneliness
I can't even tear away from my memory of you
The busy time
Makes my heart feel tightened
As you saw me, always trying to laugh off
The beginning of the End,
What went through your mind?

Ever since the break up, we both have been pretending like we don't know each other. At some point, I believe we even hated one another. Now, seeing her after such a long time, I'm far from hating her. I love her. Even though I shouldn't. Even though I know we will never be together again. I still love her.

I'm alone in the room
I remember the days we spent together
Sweet memories
The more I remember
The more tears warmly fall

Oh rainy rainy
Oh rainy rainy
Oh rainy rainy

Let go go
Just a little more
Let go go
Let me
Let go go
Love you

-He wrote down the last lines of the song and felt proud of it

All I can do is write down my stupid feeling...