Nakita ni Brent ang pagka-tulala ko sa phone ko. "Ate bakit-" Sumimangot sya nang nakita nyang tumatawag si Ian sa'kin.
Tiningnan ko lang si Brent. Parang gusto kong mag-paalam sa kanya na sagutin ang tawag dahil miss ko na si Ian, ang boses nya at kahit may kasalanan sya, mahal ko pa rin sya pero alam kong hindi tama, mali kami, dahil may girlfriend na syang iba, si Michelle. At masakit ang ginawa nya.
"Kung gusto mo ng sama ng loob, kung gusto mong sirain ang gabi mo, go ahead Ate, sagutin mo," banta ni Brent.
I fought the urge to cry. I had cried several days and nights before that and I had had enough of that. I cancelled Ian's call. I disconnected my phone from Brent's powerbank and turned my phone off.
"And let me do the same. Papatayin ko rin phone ko, dahil for sure, ako ang susunod nyang tatawagan," sabi ni Brent and proceeded to turn his phone off.
Napansin kami nina Cee at Aldrin na at that time was deep into a conversation about their Aunt's resort. "O, ba't may patayan ng phone?" pansin ni Cee.
"Wala, uso lang," dahilan na lang ni Brent. "Para we can focus on talking face-to-face diba?"
"Oo nga," agree ni Aldrin. "We're all hooked up on our phones all the time. Nice naman yung true personal connection. Do you agree Maggie?"
I smiled to join in, trying to erase Ian from my mind. "I agree."
Aldrin remembered something. "I have a friend who got really depressed going over an ex' Facebook account. He was diagnosed with clinical depression. That's sad because he was full of life before. He's now picking up the pieces," kwento nya sa'min.
"Oh yeah, si Kuya Kei," alala ni Cee sa tinutukoy na kaibigan ni Aldrin. "Sobrang nakakalungkot nga."
I will not be like that. Ayoko nang malungkot. Ayoko na. Ayoko na.
"Kaya ako? I'll delete Facebook na," I said out of nowhere. I didn't know what I was saying but I wanted to be strong. Gusto kong subukang maging matapang for myself. I'll deactivate my Facebook account later.
"Whoa. Di nga?" tanong ni Brent.
Tumango ako and smiled at my brother who seemed proud of what I was becoming.
"Wow. Pati Instagram?" tanong pa ni Brent.
"I don't really post there," sagot ko naman.
"That's a challenge. I'll do the same. Cee, you're with us?" tanong ni Aldrin sa kapatid.
"No! I love FB and IG. No, kayo na lang," sagot ni Cee. We laughed at how she said that.
"I'll try for a week siguro. I just want to join this pauso of Ate for a time. But I need social media for work kasi," sabi ni Brent.
"Deal," sabi ni Aldrin. "This will be interesting."
This is life-saving for me. Buti 'di ko pa naiisip mag-explore ng posts ni Michelle kundi baka nakita ko na ang mga memories nila ni Ian. Hay, kainis! Kabwisit!
O tama na lungkot Margaret Anne! Limutin na si Ian! Limutin na ang saya at ang tamis na si Ian! O ano bang train of thought yan! Manloloko si Ian! Akala mo lang nun matino sya pero nag-sinungaling sya!
Don't think Maggie! Focus on now, dito sa dinner, sina Brent... at si Aldrin?
"Um Maggie?" tawag sa'kin ni Aldrin. Tamang-tama ang tawag nya ng atensyon ko. I needed to focus on anything else other than my thoughts about Ian.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Unfinished Business (Completed)
RomanceThis is not my story because mine ended abruptly. I died kasi. You know, that hassle. This is the story of two people who were very close to my heart but they cannot seem to move on from the pain and the guilt of my passing. Her the pain, him the g...
