The Dixons And Me - The Walking Dead FanFiction

Chapter Sixty Five

8 Months Later

Sam's POV

I'm running, but I don't seem to be going anywhere. He's coming closer. I can sense him behind me.

"Nowhere to run now Princess." He laughs.

I turn around, and there he is. A knife in his hand. I try to move but I'm stuck. I look down and see I am naked. I look back up to his disgusting face and see that sick smirk on his face. It's as if he gets pleasure from seeing the fear in my eyes.

He walks closer, slowly as if he was tormenting me. I wriggle my legs but nothing seems to help.

He raises the knife and gently drags it across my body, he wraps an arm around me and presses his lips against my neck, digging the knife in slightly.

"You're mine." A different voice says.

He pulls away and my eyes go wide in shock. Beth is stood there, knife in hand and smiling.

"Beth." I whisper.

"I don't love you." She replies and looks to the side, and my expression turns into one of confusion as Zach, a boy around our age who has been at the prison with us for over a month, walks towards Beth and wraps an arm around her waist.

"She loves me." He smirks and I watch as he presses his lips against hers and my heart breaks. Tears fall from my eyes.

She pulls away, and Zach turns into him...The Govoner.

"Do it babe." He smirks and Beth nods her head and walks towards me and raises the knife and brings it down, stabbing me in the heart.

I sit up quickly, my body covered in sweat. My heart pounding. My breathing is heavy.

Ever since The Govoner, I haven't been the same. I've had nightmares. Trust issues. I've pushed people away. I still have the scars from when he beat me. The scar that I hate the most, is one that sits on my cheek. All the others are hidden under my clothes.

My breathing slows down, and I feel Beth stir. I'm surprised we're still together. We haven't been the same. She's been getting close to Zach and I'm scared of losing her. She's the only one who knows me better than I know myself, and losing her...It would break me.

"Sam?" She mumbles sleepily.

I turn my head to face her and she sits up rubbing her eyes.

"Another nightmare?" She asks and I nod my head.

She sighs and gently kisses me and I pull away and rest my forhead against hers and she locks our hands together.

"The nightmares aren't real. He's gone. He's not coming back, and if he does I will protect you. I'm not leaving you. I promise." She whispers and I manage a small smile and kiss her again before getting out of bed.

"I'm going for a walk." I say as I put my black Converse on and grab my crossbow.

"Okay..." She pauses. "Sam?"

"Hm?" I hum turning to face her.

"I love you."

"Love you too." I say before walking out of our cell and being met by a few early birds.

Some greet me, some ignore me. They know what happend to me. The look in their eyes...It's pity. It infuriates me. I might have gone through some tough shit and it might have damaged me, but it's making me stronger.

I walk past Daryl and Ellie's cell and check in on them. I smile to myself as I see the two still asleep, Daryl has his hand resting against Ellie's big bump. She's due any day now.

I walk out of the cell block and outside, and watch as the sun slowly rises.

"Morning Sam." Rick says walking past me and I nod my head at him.

Him and Hershel have been working on crops, which means we can plant our own food...I'm hoping we find some Cucumber seeds...I miss cucumbers.

I remember when I was about 12, I tried cucumber and whipped cream...Best thing ever.

"Hey Sam." Ariana smiles walking over to me. "Anymore nightmares about Sir Bastard?" She asks with a raised eyebrow.

She's the only one who knows about my dreams of Zach and Beth.

"Yeah..." I sigh and she quickly wraps her arms around me in a hug.

"She loves you. Just remember that." She whispers and pulls away.

I nod my head and we walk back inside, our arms linked.

As we walk back in, I see Beth is awake and she's with Zach and laughing.

I feel jealousy instantly hit me, and I have the urge to hit him.

"Hey Sam." Beth says and waves me over and walk towards her and wrap my arm around her waist and pull her closer to me and Zach's eyes flicker to my arm and he glares at me.

"Hey babe." I smile and kiss the side of her head.

"Me and Beth were talking privately." Zach says rolling his eyes.

"You obviously weren't because you're out here laughing. So shut it." I snap.

"You don't deserve her." Zach mumbles.

"Say that a little louder prick." I growl lunging forward but Beth steps in front of me and pushes me back.

"Sam, don't." She begs.

"Look at her! She's violent! She's a mess! You should be with someone who isn't a broken mess." He snaps.

I stop trying to lunge at him and bite my lip and nod my head.

"You're right." I whisper and Beth shakes her head but I ignore her. "I'm not the same since I got attacked. I got sexually assualted. I got beat. So I'm sorry that even after all of this time I haven't recovered from my attack. I'm not all there yet and Beth, babe...You deserve someone who is there and..And...And is strong, that's not me. I love you..But...I have to let you go."

Beth begins to cry and everyone is looking at us in shock. Except for Zach who stands there with a smug grin on his face. I watch as he pulls Beth close and kisses her...And I watch as she doesn't pull away.

I look down and walk out of the cell block and out of the prison.

I can't believe I did that. I can't believe they did that.

I just lost Beth.

I need to lose myself...I need to forget the pain...And I know exactly how to do that.