The Dixons And Me - The Walking Dead FanFiction

Chapter Eighty One

Sam's POV

That's not like Ellie to snap like that, even if she has lost Daryl and Ava...But they're not dead. Surely. No...No they're fine.

I walk through the barely lit tunnel, due to lack of lanterns and torches, I almost trip over but manage to catch myself. I notice a figure sat down and I know it's Ellie.

Without saying a word, I sit down next to her. We just sit in silence.

"What if he's dead? What if our child is dead?" She whispers breaking the moment of silence.

"They're not."

"You don't know that." She says turning to face me.

I sigh and smile. "I DO know that. Daryl is a tough bastard, and Ava...She's probably with him or maybe Rick got her."

"They're dead...I just know it." She says looking away.

"Stop thinking like that. Daryl and Ava are fine. I promise." I smile putting a hand on her knee.

"Just like you promised Beth that you'd protect her?" She laughs bitterly.

I feel my heart drop and I bite my lip and stand up, not bothering to even answer her. I fight back tears but a few escape.

"Sam...Sam wait I'm sorry." Ellie says but I ignore her and walk back outside, I bump into Lauren by accident and I wrap my arms around her to steady her.

"Hey, you alright?" She asks as I remove my arms from her.

"Yeah..Yeah I'm fine." I whisper quickly wiping my eyes.

That was a lie. I'm not fine. I made a promise to Beth and I broke it. I failed. She could be dead and it's all my fault.

"Stop lying. What's wrong?" She asks concerned.

"I just met you. You wouldn't understand."

"I can try to..." She says giving me a small smile.

I sigh and sit down on the ground, watching everyone else. Merle and Lisa are talking as Lisa holds Dani's hand. Glenn and Maggie are talking with Rosita and Tara. Sasha and Bob are kissing, Abe and Eugene are keeping watch.

Lauren sits down in front of me and takes my hand and strokes it gently with my thumb, waiting for me to tell her.

"There's this girl...Called Beth. She's my girlfriend. We've been through so much together. I promised I would protect her and now she's gone. She's missing. She could be dead and it's all my fault. I broke my promise. I failed to protect the girl I love. The girl I want to call my wife." The tears are streaming down my face and Lauren quickly wraps her arms around me in a hug and I hug her tightly.

"She'll be fine. I'm sure she will be." She whispers in my ear.

I pull away and I smile, Lauren wipes my eyes and I let out a shaky breath.

"So...It's just you three?" I ask changing the subject.

"Yeah...Our parents died...So did our other three sisters and our brothers. I didn't see my brothers much...I wasn't allowed to. They were with a bad crowd. We hardly spoke about them. I...I didn't even know their names...I just know I had 3 brothers."

"What were your sisters names?"

"Katherine, Christina and Amy."

I tense up at the name Amy...Memories of the girl I lost come flooding back...Her eyes...Her smile...The way she held me...And then as a walker....Her pale face, her grey eyes...Not filled with life..

"Sam, are you okay?" Lauren asks holding my hand.

"I will be." I smile.

What if Beth has ended up like Amy? Amy's death was my fault. I could have stopped it....If I had just kept my eyes open...My eyes were closed and I lost Amy. My eyes were closed and I lost Beth...I need to keep my eyes open from now on.

"Dani?!" Lisa cries causing me and Lauren to quickly stand up.

We walk over and see Dani stirring slightly, her eyes open and Lisa cries. Lauren gasps and wraps her arms around me and cries into my shoulder. I reluctantly wrap my arms around her and hold her. I just stare at Dani. She reaches out to take a bite out of Lisa but Merle stabs her in the head.

I close my eyes, trying not to think of Beth.

That could be Beth...

"Dani..." Lauren cries and holds on to me tighter. I rub her back gently and nod my head slowly.

It's Dani...Not Beth...Beth is fine. I hope.

I look towards Maggie and see her glaring at me.

I ignore her and gently rub Lauren's back.

"You'll be okay. It's going to be okay." I whisper.

Was I really comforting her? Or was I trying to convince myself that?